Last night was kind ridiculous at work. They put me outside cocktailing...which I thought would be fun until it started raining. Nonetheless, it was 'martini night' or some shit, so I had to stay out there until the band finished playing...which wasn't until about midnight. People got hammered, and started causing a ruccus, but it made for a pretty interesting night. I finally got to see first-hand how "high-rolling" people are in Miami. Makes me feel like a little bit of an outsider...I could never justify spending 2 hundred some dollars on wine while sitting there watching a local band outside in the rain. Well, I guess if 2 hundred dollars was "pocket change," like it is to most people here, then I may feel differently.
Speaking of pocket change, my car's going to end up costing about a thousand dollars...not really pocket change, but I guess I see the irony. Though I can't justify a 2 hundred dollar wine tab, I can somehow justify a thousand dollars in a car that I drive hardly ever...basically on a car that I realized I really don't need here. Anyways, bitching about it isn't going to bring the price down...this, unfortunately, isn't a situation I can negociate my way out of.
I got an exciting piece of mail today about the "gummy food chain"...it made me laugh my ass off for a good 10 straight minutes...and seeing it posted next to my desk simply increses it's humor value to me.
Although it's been storming all day...within the past 10 minutes all the clouds have somehow dissappeared, leaving what I hope to be conditions for an awesome sunset:) I wish I had some company to watch it with...but I guess it leaves bonding time for my cat and I (who by the way was sleeping on top of my head when I woke up this morning...) I don't know how that's comfortable for her, but it sure as hell wasn't comfortable for me. I don't know if it's all in my mind, but I've had a ridiculous headache all day long...one that even a handful of asprin and 2 pots of coffee couldn't cure...kind of a downfall
I keep getting more and more serious warnings about my first year in school. Some say I'm going to die, literally, and some say that I won't see people outside my classes until I finish. Apparently, my new best friend will soon become Microsoft Word, and my most valued/visited place will be the library. Sounds like an amazing schedule to me...right...I just hope it's worth it in the end.
I started worrying today about my loans. I was doing some "budgeting" today, and unless I think I can live off $8,000 a year, I think I may need to take out a little more money. Besides the fact that my parents are probably out of the picture in that department...I don't want to feel like I need to pull them back in because I don't have enough money for coffee anymore.
Even though it's still summer, and I don't start school for another couple months, I've become increasingly worried about how I'm going to deal with it when it gets here. I know I'm a freak and all when it comes to school, but I don't feel like this is going to be the situation where you can argue your way for anything, or slack a few days and get away with it. Not to mention sleeping in the back of class and having that be o.k., or saying "pass" when the professor calls on you for something you haven't read. Anyway, it's not here yet, and I'm rambling...so I'm going to kick back and watch a movie until the sun feels like setting...
I'm starting to miss MIchigan a little...the small feeling that this was some sort of long vacation has recently left me...
"Well I stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I got a feeling it's right...
If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no makebelieving..."
