A nice pessimistic way of looking at the completion of my first semester...which I apparently have 90 days before I can even say whether or not I went out with a bang. And by that time, I'll already be back in, so it won't even apply. Anyways, I have no idea how I did, and I won't find out for probably a long time...so I'm going to pretend to not care about it at least until after New Years.
Taking finals here was a lot different that I remember in undergrad...and rightfully so I suppose. You get to sit there for about 4 hours, taking a ridiculous exam to determine close to, if not, 100% of your grade. It's a little scary, and a little frustrating when the exam is only on 1/3 of the semester, and the professor leaves out nearly 2/3 of the material we learned...I figured that as a law professor, it'd be easy to be creative, but apparently not...not that it happened to me or anything...haha. Anyways, enough frustration. Well, actually, another thing that frustrates me is when professors are almost too smart to teach the material. Like they assume that we know everything they do, and they almost know too much to just teach the basics. Then you get to his or her exam, and the first half may as well have been written in a foreign language. Educated guesses come in handy sometimes...Anyways, it's over for another few months. But the preview I've had of one of my professors, who sat at a table with us when a few people were out at the Tavern celebrating? For almost 3 hours? Talking about contracts? That should make for an interesting class...
The kitties are stil precious, though are racking up a few medical bills, and a nice list of infections. I'll spare any reader, and myself, the details. Lets just say that Zoey's had a couple trips to the bathtub in the last week, Tara couldn't see for a couple days, and at one point, Tara had a cone on her head, and Zoey had on homemade sock booties. Needless to say, they hated a few people, and each other, for a couple days. Fortunately, the train wreck seems to be getting back on track.
Also, we got ourselves a little Christmas tree, and it got set up at my place:) It's not a tree "per se," but it's more of a city slicker christmas tree (aka a 4 foot potted pine that we strung lights on), but hey, it serves it's purpose. It's pretty, and it has presents underneath it:) So i'm excited to open some tonight, and I'm actually pretty proud of my Christmas shopping this year. I got everything taken care of before finals finished, (made for a few good study breaks), and now I'm going to resort to nothing. Sit here, and do absolutely nothing. Well, between changing laundry and giving the kitties medicine, and packing for the trip home...I'm doing nothing. And fortunately for me, "nothing" today is going to include playing a couple video games, drinking some tropical fruit wine, and having an early Christmas with Joe:) Sounds like a good day of nothing to me:)
I'll be heading back to Michigan in a couple days...should make for an interesting trip. Kitties are tagging along this time again, but are going to stay with Joe, who is staying with his parents, so I'll be on my own for about 10 days...kinda sad, but everything should be back on track by New Years.
A fun Christmas game for anyone looking for a festive distraction...compliments of Meredith:)
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
Sunday, November 20, 2005
You Are
T-Minus 3 days of school left...wait...I forgot about the make up classes after thanksgiving. At any rate, I'm nearing the end of this semester, which makes me a little nervous because that means that finals are in less than 2 weeks, which scares me a lot.
Speaking of Thanksgiving, I am planning on making a full-hearted attempt at making an awesome thanksgiving dinner this year. We got the turkey, and I have a couple recipies from my family that I'm going to "try my best at." I've been assured that my best will be good enough even if everything goes to hell, but I guess everything is easier said than done, meaning its probably easier to say that it will be okay in the absence of a charred turkey and a few kitchen fires. Wish me luck.
Kitties are precious, but absolute nuisances. Tara has a new hobby of drinking out of the toilet, and Zoey has an ongoing obsession with sucking on Tara's feet. I think they're both mutant cats. They only start to get on my nerves when I wake up to some table getting knocked over into the window, or Zoey walking circles around my head purring like a car motor, every hour on the hour, but even then, I have a hard time staying upset for long...
I'm looking forward to heading home for Christmas. It'll be nice to not have to worry about school for awhile anyway, and also nice to spend time with my family. The only downfall is that word on the street says it gets down to 20 there at night? I'll go ahead and pass on that. It's been at least 75 here since I came, and I've been more than happy with that.
On a lighter note, I did some Christmas shopping recently, and some more today. Makes me smile. And although I had class today, it was one of the best days I've had in awhile. Joe is doing well, and made me smile all day:)
I talked to a couple Michigander friends last night, and learned what it was like to think it is 5 a.m. and have it only be 5 p.m....haha.... I guess tailgating is priceless.
"I am intrigued by your ideas, and wish to subscribe to your newsletter....weeeeeeeeee!"
p.s. I cannot WAIT for a rat rat chop chop tomorrow....it is the best campus food ever, and conveniently only $3.99...ZING!!!
Speaking of Thanksgiving, I am planning on making a full-hearted attempt at making an awesome thanksgiving dinner this year. We got the turkey, and I have a couple recipies from my family that I'm going to "try my best at." I've been assured that my best will be good enough even if everything goes to hell, but I guess everything is easier said than done, meaning its probably easier to say that it will be okay in the absence of a charred turkey and a few kitchen fires. Wish me luck.
Kitties are precious, but absolute nuisances. Tara has a new hobby of drinking out of the toilet, and Zoey has an ongoing obsession with sucking on Tara's feet. I think they're both mutant cats. They only start to get on my nerves when I wake up to some table getting knocked over into the window, or Zoey walking circles around my head purring like a car motor, every hour on the hour, but even then, I have a hard time staying upset for long...
I'm looking forward to heading home for Christmas. It'll be nice to not have to worry about school for awhile anyway, and also nice to spend time with my family. The only downfall is that word on the street says it gets down to 20 there at night? I'll go ahead and pass on that. It's been at least 75 here since I came, and I've been more than happy with that.
On a lighter note, I did some Christmas shopping recently, and some more today. Makes me smile. And although I had class today, it was one of the best days I've had in awhile. Joe is doing well, and made me smile all day:)
I talked to a couple Michigander friends last night, and learned what it was like to think it is 5 a.m. and have it only be 5 p.m....haha.... I guess tailgating is priceless.
"I am intrigued by your ideas, and wish to subscribe to your newsletter....weeeeeeeeee!"
p.s. I cannot WAIT for a rat rat chop chop tomorrow....it is the best campus food ever, and conveniently only $3.99...ZING!!!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Blackbelt in Keeping it Real
All that needs to be said about the trip to the mitten, is that it was interesting. Nice, break, good to see people.
It's what I came back to that warrants explanation...
My apartment was fine, no blown out windows, no tree on my car, and no flooded bedroom. I was happy about that, and I even had power when I came back, which was an extra plus. After a week (yes, a whole week) off of school, I knew there would be some sort of catch to the leisure time I was able to have.
Not only do I have extended classes all week, but I have a saturday morning 8 a.m., and classes the week after thanksgiving. Which give me less time in between my exams, and the time that classes end so I can start cramming. Killer huh. 8 a.m. on a Saturday? That's going to be the most exhilerating experience of my life, not to mention that it's with the glorious book tape of a Dean I posted about earlier. School basically just keeps getting better....
On another note, try this mental picture out. Traffic at 5 o'clock in Miami, kids dressed up for Halloween, and closed roads for trick-or-treaters. Add it up, and that equals a 40 minute drive home for me from campus...which is about 2 miles away. Imagine how slow cars moved for that one. Needless to say, I was able to use my horn a lot. Oh, and I forgot the part about some of the traffic lights not working yet. I didn't want to think about leaving my apartment when I finally got back.
Anyway, I thought I would take a short break and let anyone who's interested know that everything is still standing here, except for a lot of trees and some stop signs, and I guess power lines too, but my apartment was just as I left it, which I suppose is all I can really ask of mother nature.
This is what I learned today in my torts class... "most does not mean majority..." -My prof. (no joke)
It's what I came back to that warrants explanation...
My apartment was fine, no blown out windows, no tree on my car, and no flooded bedroom. I was happy about that, and I even had power when I came back, which was an extra plus. After a week (yes, a whole week) off of school, I knew there would be some sort of catch to the leisure time I was able to have.
Not only do I have extended classes all week, but I have a saturday morning 8 a.m., and classes the week after thanksgiving. Which give me less time in between my exams, and the time that classes end so I can start cramming. Killer huh. 8 a.m. on a Saturday? That's going to be the most exhilerating experience of my life, not to mention that it's with the glorious book tape of a Dean I posted about earlier. School basically just keeps getting better....
On another note, try this mental picture out. Traffic at 5 o'clock in Miami, kids dressed up for Halloween, and closed roads for trick-or-treaters. Add it up, and that equals a 40 minute drive home for me from campus...which is about 2 miles away. Imagine how slow cars moved for that one. Needless to say, I was able to use my horn a lot. Oh, and I forgot the part about some of the traffic lights not working yet. I didn't want to think about leaving my apartment when I finally got back.
Anyway, I thought I would take a short break and let anyone who's interested know that everything is still standing here, except for a lot of trees and some stop signs, and I guess power lines too, but my apartment was just as I left it, which I suppose is all I can really ask of mother nature.
This is what I learned today in my torts class... "most does not mean majority..." -My prof. (no joke)
Oh, and I had a good dinner last night...glorious:)
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
Help...Im stuck in a mitten
I hope that this hurricane does at least enough damage to justify my flying back to Michigan...but let me just say that this cold weather makes me wonder if being in a hurricane would actually be better.
p.s. Eric hissed at me in the library and I don't think I've ever laughed harder than I did that day.
p.p.s I miss Florida, and Joe, and my kitties:(
p.s. Eric hissed at me in the library and I don't think I've ever laughed harder than I did that day.
p.p.s I miss Florida, and Joe, and my kitties:(
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Natural Disaster...Still a Season
Well...this week has taken an unexpected turn...and hopefully the hurricane they're forecasting to hit here this weekend will too. As of now, there's a strong category 4 hurricane heading toward my apartment, and my kitties:(
Kitties?? Yes, after a random trip to Petco, Joe and I obviously had a hard time leaving a box of abandoned kittens on the floor...we had to take at least one. We ended up getting a little charcoal kitty, and named it Zoey. Once I figure out how to post pictures on here again, you'll understand why we couldn't leave her precious face. I wanted to take them all, but Joe didn't think that was practical...I agree, but they were still ALL precious:)
We had a fun time watching Tara hiss at it for the first couple days, she was being territorial, and jealous, but as of now, Zoey's basically her new friend...
So Hurricane Wilma, heading toward here, leaves it up in the air as to what we're going to do about leaving/staying/preparing, ect. Hopefully, that crazy 90 degree turn it's forecasted to take won't happen, but I guess it's best to plan for it.
Options include: stay here and have a party with the kitties, and fend off water from my sliders (which flooded the apartment last time), fly to Michigan and spend some quality time with the family (while worrying about kitties, and apartments...), pack up stuff and go to Joe's, or take a road trip to Alabama with my friend Meredith. All options are possible at this point I guess, I just don't want spend money and fly back, then have the storm not hit, or drive to Alabama and have it head north.
Basically, at any rate, I'm hoping that I can look back on this post and be able to justify staying here, and maybe laugh about how freaked out people are about the whole ordeal. Though the slogan down here as of now is "better safe than sorry..."
So if you check this post out before the storm hits, let me know what you think, sort of "duct taping the cats to the floor." I'd be afraid something would fall on them:(
P.S., I posted awhile ago about the Dean that was going to take over my 8 a.m. class....yea, that's starting right now, hence, the reason I'm posting at 9 a.m. We had a reading assignment last night, and he's basically outlining the chapter for us, like it wasn't the most black and white, straightforward, 4th grade reading level material I've had yet at this school. Sounds like a good time to update my blog I guess. My book tape theory is holding nicely, this powerpoint he's using is designed for pre-schoolers....very challenging. Basically, I'm glad I spent the time reading....sarcasm emphasised
Seriously, there are Flinstone and Barney characters on the screen right now, and bundles of asparagus. It's like a picture book.
Well, now he's talking about lottery tickets, so I feel as though I should pay attention. Maybe I'll give a shout out from Michigan this weekend, maybe from Alabama, or maybe from the ruins of South Miami after this hurricane blasts through here.
That's the optimistic update as of now...keep your fingers crossed for a mellow, roof over my head, no power outage sort of weekend. And lets hope my school is still left standing:)
Kitties?? Yes, after a random trip to Petco, Joe and I obviously had a hard time leaving a box of abandoned kittens on the floor...we had to take at least one. We ended up getting a little charcoal kitty, and named it Zoey. Once I figure out how to post pictures on here again, you'll understand why we couldn't leave her precious face. I wanted to take them all, but Joe didn't think that was practical...I agree, but they were still ALL precious:)
We had a fun time watching Tara hiss at it for the first couple days, she was being territorial, and jealous, but as of now, Zoey's basically her new friend...
So Hurricane Wilma, heading toward here, leaves it up in the air as to what we're going to do about leaving/staying/preparing, ect. Hopefully, that crazy 90 degree turn it's forecasted to take won't happen, but I guess it's best to plan for it.
Options include: stay here and have a party with the kitties, and fend off water from my sliders (which flooded the apartment last time), fly to Michigan and spend some quality time with the family (while worrying about kitties, and apartments...), pack up stuff and go to Joe's, or take a road trip to Alabama with my friend Meredith. All options are possible at this point I guess, I just don't want spend money and fly back, then have the storm not hit, or drive to Alabama and have it head north.
Basically, at any rate, I'm hoping that I can look back on this post and be able to justify staying here, and maybe laugh about how freaked out people are about the whole ordeal. Though the slogan down here as of now is "better safe than sorry..."
So if you check this post out before the storm hits, let me know what you think, sort of "duct taping the cats to the floor." I'd be afraid something would fall on them:(
P.S., I posted awhile ago about the Dean that was going to take over my 8 a.m. class....yea, that's starting right now, hence, the reason I'm posting at 9 a.m. We had a reading assignment last night, and he's basically outlining the chapter for us, like it wasn't the most black and white, straightforward, 4th grade reading level material I've had yet at this school. Sounds like a good time to update my blog I guess. My book tape theory is holding nicely, this powerpoint he's using is designed for pre-schoolers....very challenging. Basically, I'm glad I spent the time reading....sarcasm emphasised
Seriously, there are Flinstone and Barney characters on the screen right now, and bundles of asparagus. It's like a picture book.
Well, now he's talking about lottery tickets, so I feel as though I should pay attention. Maybe I'll give a shout out from Michigan this weekend, maybe from Alabama, or maybe from the ruins of South Miami after this hurricane blasts through here.
That's the optimistic update as of now...keep your fingers crossed for a mellow, roof over my head, no power outage sort of weekend. And lets hope my school is still left standing:)
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Last Stop on the Optimism Train
Well I'll go ahead and revisit my last post, regarding the comment about school being in "full swing." I've come to realize that the week I posted that, must've been a unique one, for it seems as though everything has gone downhill since then. In other words, many of my professors seemed to have thrown in the towel already.
If theres one thing that frustrates me, it's this: paying a lot of money to go to law school, and coming home every day angry at the fact that I feel like I wasted my whole day sitting through worthless classes that, most of the time, aren't teaching me anything. I don't know if it's just me, but I feel as though my section's curriculum is becoming more and more unproductive by the day, which scares me, because every day that passes, is one day closer to finals. I guess I thought that my classes were supposed to prepare me for that more than I feel as though they have been.
Anyways, on a lighter note, I wanted to get my hair trimmed today, but couldn't find a place to do it that would charge less than $40...and thats even sending me out with wet hair...who's to say how much it would cost if they actually dried it.
The night was good - though after I felt like the people at the Tavern hated Joe and I for the 3rd time in a row, I had a good salad, a good strawberry banana colada (don't start with the foo-foo drink insults...it was good), and then I took full advantage of the sale ad at the good ol' W.D.
I'm fully stocked up with fruit, orange juice, and pop tarts, to deal with the remainder of the most worthless educational week of my life. I'm surprisingly in a good mood though, don't you worry.
I'm looking forward to having a substitute for my property class...and not just any substitute, the dean of students. Tell me how much better that's going to make my 8 a.m. A group of people around me decided that it would be more entertaining to listen to a book tape.
It's about time for me to go, I need to catch up with my mountainman friend who's dealing with the wrath from another school. Consider this post my shout out. Maybe someone can help me figure out an existing remedy short of dropping, that'd boost my mood right now straight through the ceiling:)
Until then, I'm planning a bonfire this weekend...anyone who has something, like law books, old furniture, or perhaps animals who wake you up at 5 a.m. and eat cords...is welcome to attend.
If theres one thing that frustrates me, it's this: paying a lot of money to go to law school, and coming home every day angry at the fact that I feel like I wasted my whole day sitting through worthless classes that, most of the time, aren't teaching me anything. I don't know if it's just me, but I feel as though my section's curriculum is becoming more and more unproductive by the day, which scares me, because every day that passes, is one day closer to finals. I guess I thought that my classes were supposed to prepare me for that more than I feel as though they have been.
Anyways, on a lighter note, I wanted to get my hair trimmed today, but couldn't find a place to do it that would charge less than $40...and thats even sending me out with wet hair...who's to say how much it would cost if they actually dried it.
The night was good - though after I felt like the people at the Tavern hated Joe and I for the 3rd time in a row, I had a good salad, a good strawberry banana colada (don't start with the foo-foo drink insults...it was good), and then I took full advantage of the sale ad at the good ol' W.D.
I'm fully stocked up with fruit, orange juice, and pop tarts, to deal with the remainder of the most worthless educational week of my life. I'm surprisingly in a good mood though, don't you worry.
I'm looking forward to having a substitute for my property class...and not just any substitute, the dean of students. Tell me how much better that's going to make my 8 a.m. A group of people around me decided that it would be more entertaining to listen to a book tape.
It's about time for me to go, I need to catch up with my mountainman friend who's dealing with the wrath from another school. Consider this post my shout out. Maybe someone can help me figure out an existing remedy short of dropping, that'd boost my mood right now straight through the ceiling:)
Until then, I'm planning a bonfire this weekend...anyone who has something, like law books, old furniture, or perhaps animals who wake you up at 5 a.m. and eat cords...is welcome to attend.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Crash Course In Social Phenomena
I feel as though it's safe to say that school is officially in full swing. At least I hope so, for I've been making trips to the libray for the last few weekends, and anymore of a swing would probably involve me pitching a tent there. It's okay though, i've managed to keep up so far, though my cat's costing my a pretty penny with her fetish of eating expensive cords, chargers, internet cables, etc. One of these days...
It's been a pretty mellow weekend though, I've gotten a lot done, and even had some extra time to do some laundry and talk to my parents a little.
I even washed my slippers, which put a huge smile on my face when I wore them prancing around my apartment....:)
I do think it's funny, though, that my cat is deathly afraid of vaccuums. I tried to put her close to it today and she went crazy and didn't come out from under the bed for a good hour. Guess there's one way to keep her out of my way right? (I felt bad actually...) But my cat was lured out of underneath the bed when I came back...I guess she likes playing peek-a-boo from the laundry basket...sometimes she can be precious.
I had another run in with a bank, but don't feel as though I have the emotional capacity to go through the explanation. Not this bank, the one from Michigan that I havn't accessed in a few months, and don't even have a card for anymore...anyways, somehow I accumulated a hundred some dollars in overdraft fees....leave it to me I guess. Overdraw an account I don't even have access to.
Anywho - I'm going to get ahead on a little reading for this week. I'd much rather be playing video games or something, but feel as though I should do something productive. Even though I was at the library this morning early enough to get a front parking space, so I guess that should count for something:) Maybe...
Caleb, we should go back to Utah when we graduate from law school...it'd be like a mountainman reunion. Till then, i'll just keep drinking tea.
By the way, pringles are awesome, and so is the sun:)
"The wheels just keep on turning,
the drummer begins to drum,
I don't know which was I'm going...
I dont know what I've become
hold my hand...
inside your hands,
I need someone,
who understands...
I hear your laugh,
I heard you sing...
I wouldnt change a single thing"
It's been a pretty mellow weekend though, I've gotten a lot done, and even had some extra time to do some laundry and talk to my parents a little.
I even washed my slippers, which put a huge smile on my face when I wore them prancing around my apartment....:)
I do think it's funny, though, that my cat is deathly afraid of vaccuums. I tried to put her close to it today and she went crazy and didn't come out from under the bed for a good hour. Guess there's one way to keep her out of my way right? (I felt bad actually...) But my cat was lured out of underneath the bed when I came back...I guess she likes playing peek-a-boo from the laundry basket...sometimes she can be precious.
I had another run in with a bank, but don't feel as though I have the emotional capacity to go through the explanation. Not this bank, the one from Michigan that I havn't accessed in a few months, and don't even have a card for anymore...anyways, somehow I accumulated a hundred some dollars in overdraft fees....leave it to me I guess. Overdraw an account I don't even have access to.
Anywho - I'm going to get ahead on a little reading for this week. I'd much rather be playing video games or something, but feel as though I should do something productive. Even though I was at the library this morning early enough to get a front parking space, so I guess that should count for something:) Maybe...
Caleb, we should go back to Utah when we graduate from law school...it'd be like a mountainman reunion. Till then, i'll just keep drinking tea.
By the way, pringles are awesome, and so is the sun:)
"The wheels just keep on turning,
the drummer begins to drum,
I don't know which was I'm going...
I dont know what I've become
hold my hand...
inside your hands,
I need someone,
who understands...
I hear your laugh,
I heard you sing...
I wouldnt change a single thing"
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Don't Worry...Hell Is On Schedule
Just what you all were waiting for...another optimistic post. I know it's been awhile, but I suppose it takes a special time for me to feel as though I've done enough work to warrant my doing something uneducational. Anywho.
It's only Wednesday, and since Monday was Labor Day (the first time in awhile I've actually not had class that day - thank you very much private Christian College), that means that I've only had two days of class this week, though it feels a lot closer to two hundred. At first I was a little suspicious as to why I had free time sometimes, especially after hearing stories about people not sleeping for weeks, but it only took a couple weeks for me to realize that that most of the syllabus' maintained a steady, yet somewhat deceiving incline. It's almost as if they start off slow until everyone finally gets to the point where they have somewhat of a daily routine to maintain the workload, then they throw in a couple extra cases every night and the schedule that I thought I had mastered is suddenly significantly short of being enough.
I spent this past weekend doing work, as well as Labor Day. Well, except for the time that was allotted to standing outside in the street with my cat for a couple hours because my building was on fire, and the periodic breaks that must be taken to eat, sleep, shower and of course play a couple rounds of Dr. Mario, but most of the time, I was doing work. As a result of this, I felt I had justified myself in leaving my books on campus for the night in order to enjoy a dinner that I'm looking forward to kind of a lot, and maybe a movie. This, having been my daily routine all summer, is a little harder to let go of than I had anticipated at first.
Now that I think about the summer, I think I may still have a paycheck coming to me...not that it's going to be all that great, but any money coming to me at this point is a good thing. Speaking of, I got a check from my health insurance for fifteen dollars, which if you know me at all, you can probably guess that I can't find it.
It all goes back to that missing money from the spring...which I'm still looking for. I think I blame Tara. She's the only one living here that would eat money, and as far as I'm concerned, money doesn't vanish into thin air, and I don't suppose a ghost came in and took it...because I can usually tell when things like that happen. I can't believe I just brought that money up again, I'm laughing out loud right now about that huge stuffed Elmo that I got that night, probably out of sympathy, but one can always use a life-size, 4 foot Elmo right?
By the way I still have it, though Joe is pretty much the only one who's gotten any use out of it lately, and that's only to chase my cat around the apartment to scare her. I actually drove with it in my car for awhile when I first got it cause I was too lazy to take it out. People probably thought I was crazy, though they still should...
Anyways, one more cup of coffee for the road...
It's only Wednesday, and since Monday was Labor Day (the first time in awhile I've actually not had class that day - thank you very much private Christian College), that means that I've only had two days of class this week, though it feels a lot closer to two hundred. At first I was a little suspicious as to why I had free time sometimes, especially after hearing stories about people not sleeping for weeks, but it only took a couple weeks for me to realize that that most of the syllabus' maintained a steady, yet somewhat deceiving incline. It's almost as if they start off slow until everyone finally gets to the point where they have somewhat of a daily routine to maintain the workload, then they throw in a couple extra cases every night and the schedule that I thought I had mastered is suddenly significantly short of being enough.
I spent this past weekend doing work, as well as Labor Day. Well, except for the time that was allotted to standing outside in the street with my cat for a couple hours because my building was on fire, and the periodic breaks that must be taken to eat, sleep, shower and of course play a couple rounds of Dr. Mario, but most of the time, I was doing work. As a result of this, I felt I had justified myself in leaving my books on campus for the night in order to enjoy a dinner that I'm looking forward to kind of a lot, and maybe a movie. This, having been my daily routine all summer, is a little harder to let go of than I had anticipated at first.
Now that I think about the summer, I think I may still have a paycheck coming to me...not that it's going to be all that great, but any money coming to me at this point is a good thing. Speaking of, I got a check from my health insurance for fifteen dollars, which if you know me at all, you can probably guess that I can't find it.
It all goes back to that missing money from the spring...which I'm still looking for. I think I blame Tara. She's the only one living here that would eat money, and as far as I'm concerned, money doesn't vanish into thin air, and I don't suppose a ghost came in and took it...because I can usually tell when things like that happen. I can't believe I just brought that money up again, I'm laughing out loud right now about that huge stuffed Elmo that I got that night, probably out of sympathy, but one can always use a life-size, 4 foot Elmo right?
By the way I still have it, though Joe is pretty much the only one who's gotten any use out of it lately, and that's only to chase my cat around the apartment to scare her. I actually drove with it in my car for awhile when I first got it cause I was too lazy to take it out. People probably thought I was crazy, though they still should...
Anyways, one more cup of coffee for the road...
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Inclement Weather
I've found that the more that the week goes on, the harder it gets to focus in my 8 o'clock, not to mention keep my eyes open. It always seemed to me that it would get easier. Nevertheless, I'm finished with 8 o'clocks for the week, and have been sitting in the student lounge for the past half hour navigating between the school's weather advisory site, weather.com, and IM. I feel drained, I don't have any energy, and all I want to do is sleep.
A tropical storm - soon to be hurricane - just caused my night class to get cancelled. All I'm doing is sitting here waiting for a "statement" reagarding the rest of the day. This is the first storm I've seen since I've been here that's actually going to blast the inland part of Florida, and not just the coast...so basically I think we'll feel it this time. Not to mention the 26 or so inches of rainfall that we're supposed to get over the next couple days - that'll probably flood my car. That'll be kind of awesome, and by kind of I mean not at all.
I also just found out that if class is cancelled, they just entend the next session to make up for it. I guess you really can't cut corners in this program. Anyways, I basically am sitting on campus right now until 2, for a class that will probably be cancelled, and if not, it's only an hour. Either way, I'm going to be driving home in heavy rain, with crazy people on the road, that I'm not in the mood to deal with. Not saying that I'm not one of those crazy people or anything...
I'm hoping that my class tomorrow is cancelled, so I can at least have a long weekend to catch up on everything. I thought I would be looking forward to the weekends as a break from school since I'm on campus most of the day anyway during the week. Not the case so far at least, I have a lot of catching up to do if I want to stay ahead of things.
Anyways, enough ranting about school for now. I'll complain about the rain a little more...just kidding. Ok, I think I may curl up on this couch and try to take a little nap until I wait for a weather statement, since I'm finding it surprisingly hard, again, to concentrate...can you believe it?
If anyone has any suggestions for staying awake other than coffee (pending that they're legal-I don't want to hear about speed, or cocaine or anything like that), please let me know - cause I'm having a small problem staying awake through property law... I'm going to keep looking for hurricane updates, this campus is a huge ruckus right now - people are going crazy...and I'm going to start in a minute...that's the update for now...
A tropical storm - soon to be hurricane - just caused my night class to get cancelled. All I'm doing is sitting here waiting for a "statement" reagarding the rest of the day. This is the first storm I've seen since I've been here that's actually going to blast the inland part of Florida, and not just the coast...so basically I think we'll feel it this time. Not to mention the 26 or so inches of rainfall that we're supposed to get over the next couple days - that'll probably flood my car. That'll be kind of awesome, and by kind of I mean not at all.
I also just found out that if class is cancelled, they just entend the next session to make up for it. I guess you really can't cut corners in this program. Anyways, I basically am sitting on campus right now until 2, for a class that will probably be cancelled, and if not, it's only an hour. Either way, I'm going to be driving home in heavy rain, with crazy people on the road, that I'm not in the mood to deal with. Not saying that I'm not one of those crazy people or anything...
I'm hoping that my class tomorrow is cancelled, so I can at least have a long weekend to catch up on everything. I thought I would be looking forward to the weekends as a break from school since I'm on campus most of the day anyway during the week. Not the case so far at least, I have a lot of catching up to do if I want to stay ahead of things.
Anyways, enough ranting about school for now. I'll complain about the rain a little more...just kidding. Ok, I think I may curl up on this couch and try to take a little nap until I wait for a weather statement, since I'm finding it surprisingly hard, again, to concentrate...can you believe it?
If anyone has any suggestions for staying awake other than coffee (pending that they're legal-I don't want to hear about speed, or cocaine or anything like that), please let me know - cause I'm having a small problem staying awake through property law... I'm going to keep looking for hurricane updates, this campus is a huge ruckus right now - people are going crazy...and I'm going to start in a minute...that's the update for now...
Monday, August 22, 2005
Back In The Swing Of Things...
As my cat pushes her water bowl across the floor with her nose, trying to get attention, I find myself surprisingly distracted from doing work. I've fallen off the face of the Earth, it feels like, in the last couple weeks...or in other words, started law school.
I feel like I may fall off the face of the Earth over the next couple months too, so its pretty easy to assure myself that the summer is going to seem more and more appealing in retrospect - not that it wasn't appealing at the time, and I know its cliche and all, but you really don't know what you have till it's gone. All that spare time, without thinking that I should be doing something productive, would be kind of awesome right now. Even by throwing up this post right now it seems like I'm wasting time. Oh well, I've been doing a good job keeping up, and even ahead sometimes.
I've also found that I'll need to haul 2 backpacks to school, just to be able to take everything, as well as use a stupid locker that's smaller than a microwave. Awesome. Not to mention that UM seems like a school that will nickle and dime me for everything it can - and I wondered how it had money to throw us a million dollar dinner at the Biltmore. What was I thinking.
A funny thing I've noticed about class so far is this: you can do just about anything and fit in. I could wear just about anything under the sun around campus and find at least 5 other people wearing something similar. I guess that's just what you get with a big university, and it's been a lot different than Hope, that's for sure.
Things other than school have been going well too. Joe got the job he's been looking for since he came here, so I'm happy about that. His place is coming around too, we've been doing a good job supporting each other with new things in life, and it makes it a lot more enjoyable to be experiencing it with someone else. It seems as though everything is falling into place - now I just need to get through school alive, and I think that with the situation at hand, it's more than possible.
Anyways, I found out the hard way that if you get to campus after 10 then it's nearly impossible to get a parking spot anywhere on campus. Yes I have a parking pass, but when issued, it's issued as a "hunting license." Classy, I thought, but it's true.
It's kind of a wierd feeling, that everyone I meet from here on at school, is a competition to me. I feel as though it's a bad set-up for making legitimate friends, but seeing as how I can't change it, I'll deal with it. The school mandates that only a certain percentage of people can get A's, and B's, and so forth. So no matter how well I actually do, it's completely based on my comparison to others in my program. Kinda scary, but I guess you just have to watch out for some people, who only want your friendship to use it against you, or so I have been warned...
Anyways, there's a short update of how things have been going. Thank you, zero-balance on my credit card, and thank you 1000 dollar combined charge for books and parking pass...I'll take revenge on that eventually. Maybe have a bonfire with my books one night and make those s'mores I've been craving for awhile now. No, that would be silly - again, what was I thinking?
There's a creepy delay on my computer right now, and this is taking much too long to type...
"Back to school, back to school,
To prove to dad that I'm not a fool,
I got my lunch packed up, my boots tied tight,
I hope I don't get in a fight....."
-Billy Madison....ha-ha-ha:)
I feel like I may fall off the face of the Earth over the next couple months too, so its pretty easy to assure myself that the summer is going to seem more and more appealing in retrospect - not that it wasn't appealing at the time, and I know its cliche and all, but you really don't know what you have till it's gone. All that spare time, without thinking that I should be doing something productive, would be kind of awesome right now. Even by throwing up this post right now it seems like I'm wasting time. Oh well, I've been doing a good job keeping up, and even ahead sometimes.
I've also found that I'll need to haul 2 backpacks to school, just to be able to take everything, as well as use a stupid locker that's smaller than a microwave. Awesome. Not to mention that UM seems like a school that will nickle and dime me for everything it can - and I wondered how it had money to throw us a million dollar dinner at the Biltmore. What was I thinking.
A funny thing I've noticed about class so far is this: you can do just about anything and fit in. I could wear just about anything under the sun around campus and find at least 5 other people wearing something similar. I guess that's just what you get with a big university, and it's been a lot different than Hope, that's for sure.
Things other than school have been going well too. Joe got the job he's been looking for since he came here, so I'm happy about that. His place is coming around too, we've been doing a good job supporting each other with new things in life, and it makes it a lot more enjoyable to be experiencing it with someone else. It seems as though everything is falling into place - now I just need to get through school alive, and I think that with the situation at hand, it's more than possible.
Anyways, I found out the hard way that if you get to campus after 10 then it's nearly impossible to get a parking spot anywhere on campus. Yes I have a parking pass, but when issued, it's issued as a "hunting license." Classy, I thought, but it's true.
It's kind of a wierd feeling, that everyone I meet from here on at school, is a competition to me. I feel as though it's a bad set-up for making legitimate friends, but seeing as how I can't change it, I'll deal with it. The school mandates that only a certain percentage of people can get A's, and B's, and so forth. So no matter how well I actually do, it's completely based on my comparison to others in my program. Kinda scary, but I guess you just have to watch out for some people, who only want your friendship to use it against you, or so I have been warned...
Anyways, there's a short update of how things have been going. Thank you, zero-balance on my credit card, and thank you 1000 dollar combined charge for books and parking pass...I'll take revenge on that eventually. Maybe have a bonfire with my books one night and make those s'mores I've been craving for awhile now. No, that would be silly - again, what was I thinking?
There's a creepy delay on my computer right now, and this is taking much too long to type...
"Back to school, back to school,
To prove to dad that I'm not a fool,
I got my lunch packed up, my boots tied tight,
I hope I don't get in a fight....."
-Billy Madison....ha-ha-ha:)
Friday, August 05, 2005
Check Again Please
It's been a rough couple of days...mainly because I've been sick - and may as well have been on bedrest for the past 2 days. I've basically felt pretty useless. There haven't been many days where I actually didn't think I could work, but yesterday was one of them...I bit the bullet and called in sick. I hate doing that. Mainly because I hate people that do that, and hate the thought of being one of them. It's a different story when people actually are sick, but that's rarely the case. Nonetheless, seeing as how I didn't do much more that fall asleep in various places in my apartment, I feel as though my call was justified.
I think it got to the point yesterday where taking a combination of medicines made me see crazy things, not to mention feeling narcoleptic. One minute it was 3:30, the next, I woke up and it was nearly 8 - and I sometimes had no recollection of trying to fall asleep...anyway, I felt a little better when I woke up today, good enough to work sluggishly until about 3 when I came back here and crashed again for the evening.
It's friday night, nearly 9 o'clock, and I'm sitting here nursing down one of the four components of my recent diet: soup, oatmeal, juice, and fruit cups (it's soup right now), listening to Christmas music with my cat, and wondering if I went to sleep right now, would I be able to make it through the night? I tried to move onto solid food, like crackers and cereal today, but it felt like a knife on my throat...maybe i'll treat myself to some ice cream tonight.
I'm beginning to wonder what Christmas would look and feel like here. Some say it's just different, and some say it's not like Christmas at all. I don't know why I'm all that worried about it, seeing as how it's the beginning of August, and no one said I would even make it through school alive that far so maybe I shouldn't get my hopes up.
I've talked to my mom a couple times this past week, and things seem to be looking up a little. All I can say is at least they're not looking down any further. Thankfully, it didn't get worse than it did, and all I can do at this point is hope that it only gets better from here.
I've got a week left at work, it's been good, and I can see myself going back. I don't think I was there long enough to hate it. The way I see it, is that if I only work there in small incriments, like summers, then I won't ever be there long enough at one time to begin to despise it the way I did Carino's. It would be a shame to be able to complain that much about two different places in the same year.
I've watched about 3/4 of probably 5 movies in the last 2 days, mainly because I can't stay awake long enough to finish them. In addition to that, I started a new game of Kingdom Hearts, though I only made it about a half hour before I dropped the controller on my way to sleep. I think my body may be trying to tell me something.
I was only 100 dollars away from buying a bunny last week. It was the cutest little white bunny, and all it wanted to do was be loved. I though my cat and I could share the job, just kidding. I told my brother that I was thinking about it, he just laughed and said "wow, you're retarted."
I get to have tomorrow off to recooperate a little more, but then guess what, I get to work the patio on Sunday night so I'll get hellbent all over again. In addition to that, I get to open twice next week, which is ridiculous. All that means it I get to roll into work half asleep at 9:30 a.m., sort some spoons, wipe down tables, and set the whole restaurant up for less than 5 dollars while getting dictated to by some girl who has been there about 2 months longer than I have. Today she was trying to take th job of "manager," and started yelling at everyone trying to tell people what to do. Funny how she didn't make it halfway through her instructions to me before I was walking away. I hate it when people talk down to people for no reason, there's no reason why she couldn't have been civilized about it. It probably just made me more mad because I haven't been able to get coffee down in about 3 days now.
"Far off and here,
Whole and broken,
Who in necessity and in bounty wait,
Who's truth is light and dark,
Mute, though spoken,
By thy wide grace,
Show me thy narrow gate..."
I think it got to the point yesterday where taking a combination of medicines made me see crazy things, not to mention feeling narcoleptic. One minute it was 3:30, the next, I woke up and it was nearly 8 - and I sometimes had no recollection of trying to fall asleep...anyway, I felt a little better when I woke up today, good enough to work sluggishly until about 3 when I came back here and crashed again for the evening.
It's friday night, nearly 9 o'clock, and I'm sitting here nursing down one of the four components of my recent diet: soup, oatmeal, juice, and fruit cups (it's soup right now), listening to Christmas music with my cat, and wondering if I went to sleep right now, would I be able to make it through the night? I tried to move onto solid food, like crackers and cereal today, but it felt like a knife on my throat...maybe i'll treat myself to some ice cream tonight.
I'm beginning to wonder what Christmas would look and feel like here. Some say it's just different, and some say it's not like Christmas at all. I don't know why I'm all that worried about it, seeing as how it's the beginning of August, and no one said I would even make it through school alive that far so maybe I shouldn't get my hopes up.
I've talked to my mom a couple times this past week, and things seem to be looking up a little. All I can say is at least they're not looking down any further. Thankfully, it didn't get worse than it did, and all I can do at this point is hope that it only gets better from here.
I've got a week left at work, it's been good, and I can see myself going back. I don't think I was there long enough to hate it. The way I see it, is that if I only work there in small incriments, like summers, then I won't ever be there long enough at one time to begin to despise it the way I did Carino's. It would be a shame to be able to complain that much about two different places in the same year.
I've watched about 3/4 of probably 5 movies in the last 2 days, mainly because I can't stay awake long enough to finish them. In addition to that, I started a new game of Kingdom Hearts, though I only made it about a half hour before I dropped the controller on my way to sleep. I think my body may be trying to tell me something.
I was only 100 dollars away from buying a bunny last week. It was the cutest little white bunny, and all it wanted to do was be loved. I though my cat and I could share the job, just kidding. I told my brother that I was thinking about it, he just laughed and said "wow, you're retarted."
I get to have tomorrow off to recooperate a little more, but then guess what, I get to work the patio on Sunday night so I'll get hellbent all over again. In addition to that, I get to open twice next week, which is ridiculous. All that means it I get to roll into work half asleep at 9:30 a.m., sort some spoons, wipe down tables, and set the whole restaurant up for less than 5 dollars while getting dictated to by some girl who has been there about 2 months longer than I have. Today she was trying to take th job of "manager," and started yelling at everyone trying to tell people what to do. Funny how she didn't make it halfway through her instructions to me before I was walking away. I hate it when people talk down to people for no reason, there's no reason why she couldn't have been civilized about it. It probably just made me more mad because I haven't been able to get coffee down in about 3 days now.
"Far off and here,
Whole and broken,
Who in necessity and in bounty wait,
Who's truth is light and dark,
Mute, though spoken,
By thy wide grace,
Show me thy narrow gate..."
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
You...Shook Me All Night Long
Remember that great song? I was reminiscing about high school days when I was reminded of a commercial for our school's "news broadcast," which included clips of our tennis team, and basically that song. Anyways, people complained about it's provacative nature, and I laughed about it all over again a couple days ago.
I've been in the mood lately, to hear about funny things that happened back in the day, and I actually found myself unusually excited about old choir music again. Guess that kinda thing just happens every once and awhile.
I put my notice in at Marino's yesterday. I was there for a good couple months, made summer rent, and basically killed some time with the job before school....which starts up in a couple weeks here. I can't believe the summer's already almost over with...kinda crazy how fast things go sometimes.
My mom's still not talking to me, which doesn't surprise me. I see a reflection of my stubborn streak in her, and at least I can understand how the bitter attitude works: she won't give in for awhile, and it's basically come down to holding a grudge over not getting a desired outcome.
The weather here has gotten a little hotter, but I'll take it in return for not having to see snow all winter long. I think it's a decent trade-off.
Joe's parents are driving down to move stuff into his new place tomorrow. They're going to make the trecherous drive that I had to make with my parents at one point, and luckily don't think I'll have to make again anytime soon. I'm at least happy that he's got some support in the situation...and that I get along with both of them.
I've managed to stay in touch with my brother for the most part. I found that I almost miss him the most. I find myself with a knot in my stomach sometimes when I think about all the times we would sit through dinner and ramble through entire movie scenes while my parents just gave the both of us blank stares, my mom sometimes laughing a little to be a part of the joke between us. It's funny how much you don't realize how much stuff like that means until you don't get to hear it all the time. Anyway, I know he's happy right now, and getting along with my parents pretty well so I wish him the best.
It's kind of a conundrum when it storms on your day off...it's always nice to be out in the sun, but burling up watching movies and listening to thunder isn't all that bad...
"Take till there's nothing
Nothing to turn to
Nothing when you get through
Won't you break
Scattered pieces of all I've been
Bowing to all I've been
Running to where...
The trouble is...
We don't know who we are instead,
I'll keep runnin' the other way
My heart ain't built to stay...
And the world just ain't that way..."
I've been in the mood lately, to hear about funny things that happened back in the day, and I actually found myself unusually excited about old choir music again. Guess that kinda thing just happens every once and awhile.
I put my notice in at Marino's yesterday. I was there for a good couple months, made summer rent, and basically killed some time with the job before school....which starts up in a couple weeks here. I can't believe the summer's already almost over with...kinda crazy how fast things go sometimes.
My mom's still not talking to me, which doesn't surprise me. I see a reflection of my stubborn streak in her, and at least I can understand how the bitter attitude works: she won't give in for awhile, and it's basically come down to holding a grudge over not getting a desired outcome.
The weather here has gotten a little hotter, but I'll take it in return for not having to see snow all winter long. I think it's a decent trade-off.
Joe's parents are driving down to move stuff into his new place tomorrow. They're going to make the trecherous drive that I had to make with my parents at one point, and luckily don't think I'll have to make again anytime soon. I'm at least happy that he's got some support in the situation...and that I get along with both of them.
I've managed to stay in touch with my brother for the most part. I found that I almost miss him the most. I find myself with a knot in my stomach sometimes when I think about all the times we would sit through dinner and ramble through entire movie scenes while my parents just gave the both of us blank stares, my mom sometimes laughing a little to be a part of the joke between us. It's funny how much you don't realize how much stuff like that means until you don't get to hear it all the time. Anyway, I know he's happy right now, and getting along with my parents pretty well so I wish him the best.
It's kind of a conundrum when it storms on your day off...it's always nice to be out in the sun, but burling up watching movies and listening to thunder isn't all that bad...
"Take till there's nothing
Nothing to turn to
Nothing when you get through
Won't you break
Scattered pieces of all I've been
Bowing to all I've been
Running to where...
The trouble is...
We don't know who we are instead,
I'll keep runnin' the other way
My heart ain't built to stay...
And the world just ain't that way..."
Monday, July 11, 2005
Michigan's Got Nothin on Weather
Well the forth tropical storm of the season is over with...taking a few trees and roofing panels with it, but nonetheless, I'm still here with all my windows and doors.
I'm not getting my hopes up yet, for we've broken records with the storms already, and we're forecasted to have a pretty brutal season...bolt the door.
I think it's funny how the 4 seasons in Michigan are sometimes referred to as: almost winter, winter, summer, and construction. Well, the seasons here can be described as: almost summer, summer, unbearable hell, and natural disaster. Welcome to the state where natural disaster is a season...here is me missing the mitten state a little.
I've been trying to keep in touch with my parents, but regardless of when or how much I call, it always seems to be dumbed down to some small talk, meaningless jargon that unfortunately we could both live without dealing with. Fortunately, I'm not giving up.
I've found that making coffee can sometimes not work out all that well. What I mean is, sometimes the grounds make it to the coffee pot, which makes me feel kinda stupid, like i'm too incompetant to make coffee without screwing it up, anyway, that happened to me this morning and I didn't like it.
I've got a 30-day countdown until orientation...how do I feel about that? Well, I'm not really sure yet actually...I've been debating keeping my job on the weekends, but I think it's going to come down to it not really being worth it. I'm excited to get back into the swing of things though, seeing as how it's been about 8 months since i've actually done any school work...or real work of any kind I guess. I almost miss it. Maybe it's just the idea of being challenged, because upselling fine dining isn't really cutting it for me at this point.
I got new wallpaper in my apartment...it's called random scrapbook bullshit. I got bored one night and decided to tack up just about everything I could find in my apartment that was possible to put/worthy of being on the wall. I've got pictures dating back to high school, and memories I almost forgot I had. It makes it kinda cozy, and I kinda like it. Whoever said being a packrat was a bad thing was seriously disturbed. This decor may save me about halfway through school.
Other than that, everything is going well. Except for the coffee grounds I just drank out of my coffee cup, that wasn't too good. And my parents still aren't going very well. My car's still not done yet...that's just kinda neutral though. I've settled on keeping my hair dark for probably kind of a long time...that's probably differed in opinion. I still get mosquito bites like a little kid, which isn't good.
On a lighter note though, this post must seem a little more optimistic than usual...don't you think?
Is this a feeling of something
About to happen?
Like snapping out of something
I didn't realize i was in...
Was I sleeping?
I'm not getting my hopes up yet, for we've broken records with the storms already, and we're forecasted to have a pretty brutal season...bolt the door.
I think it's funny how the 4 seasons in Michigan are sometimes referred to as: almost winter, winter, summer, and construction. Well, the seasons here can be described as: almost summer, summer, unbearable hell, and natural disaster. Welcome to the state where natural disaster is a season...here is me missing the mitten state a little.
I've been trying to keep in touch with my parents, but regardless of when or how much I call, it always seems to be dumbed down to some small talk, meaningless jargon that unfortunately we could both live without dealing with. Fortunately, I'm not giving up.
I've found that making coffee can sometimes not work out all that well. What I mean is, sometimes the grounds make it to the coffee pot, which makes me feel kinda stupid, like i'm too incompetant to make coffee without screwing it up, anyway, that happened to me this morning and I didn't like it.
I've got a 30-day countdown until orientation...how do I feel about that? Well, I'm not really sure yet actually...I've been debating keeping my job on the weekends, but I think it's going to come down to it not really being worth it. I'm excited to get back into the swing of things though, seeing as how it's been about 8 months since i've actually done any school work...or real work of any kind I guess. I almost miss it. Maybe it's just the idea of being challenged, because upselling fine dining isn't really cutting it for me at this point.
I got new wallpaper in my apartment...it's called random scrapbook bullshit. I got bored one night and decided to tack up just about everything I could find in my apartment that was possible to put/worthy of being on the wall. I've got pictures dating back to high school, and memories I almost forgot I had. It makes it kinda cozy, and I kinda like it. Whoever said being a packrat was a bad thing was seriously disturbed. This decor may save me about halfway through school.
Other than that, everything is going well. Except for the coffee grounds I just drank out of my coffee cup, that wasn't too good. And my parents still aren't going very well. My car's still not done yet...that's just kinda neutral though. I've settled on keeping my hair dark for probably kind of a long time...that's probably differed in opinion. I still get mosquito bites like a little kid, which isn't good.
On a lighter note though, this post must seem a little more optimistic than usual...don't you think?
Is this a feeling of something
About to happen?
Like snapping out of something
I didn't realize i was in...
Was I sleeping?
Saturday, June 25, 2005
'Cause There's Beauty In The Breakdown
Well, I've come to the end of the long stretch...and I only have 2 more days...:)
As the day gets closer though, my family is becoming more and more adamant to convince me of how "wrong" I am. My mom has even resorted now to venting to my grandparents, while I believe she secretly hopes that they'll become furious and step into the picture siding with her "offensive attack mode."
Funny how that actually did happen too...I got a letter from them Thursday basically stating that they were furious...kinda odd how I haven't said a word to them about it, though they feel like they know every detail of the situation as if they were actually involved the whole time. Don't worry, I wrote them back, respectfully, and became even more convinced that I am, in fact, making the right move. My negativity is slowly, but surely vanishing. And although I don't think that the worst is over yet (I feel as though I may be only halfway to the worst...), after 2 more days of this, I think that life will become a hell of a lot easier to deal with.
I never thought that I could miss someone as much as I do...it's almost a good feeling. Not that I want to be in this "missing mood" forever by any means, I think I've served my time in that department, and I'm ready for that part to finally be over:)
I would rant about work a little...but I think that we all probably know by now that Saturday = the day that Stephanie is working on the patio...which is never a good start to an optimistic day. I raged enough today that they actually let me leave and I was able to fit in a little "sun time."
Yes, you read that correctly...."sun time." Today should go down in history as the first day I've seen Florida actually warranted in being called "the sunshine state." I was amazed...it actually took me a minute to realize it wasn't my crazy imagination acting up on me again...
I can hardly keep my eyes open right now...I've been up since 7 for some ridiculous meeting at work, then obviously had to stay and waste my time on the patio for awhile. Then of course I thought it would be a good idea to let the sun drain out the remainder of my energy, simply because I don't work again until 4 tomorrow, and who's to say that I can't have a relaxing night watching the sunset, movies, and this pitcher of pina colada quickly become empty. Surprisingly, this has been a pretty enjoyable day...despite what I had to wake up to.
I had some crazy dreams that bugs were crawling all over in my bed...I woke up continuously, and abruptly throughout the night, and even turned the light on a couple times in order to assure myself that the bugs weren't real. Really though, they were crawling on my face and feet and it was kinda creepy...Maybe I really am going crazy. I was actually partially awake still when my alarm went off at 7, so I wasn't nearly as tired as I had expected to be. Not to mention that the sunshine was shining bright through my window...my first thought was if I have to be at work all day, it better be raining by noon.
I found an old bag of conversation hearts, that fortunately hadn't been opened. I think I probably had the intention of saving them for a day like today...I love it when I do stuff like that:) I fell asleep outside under the sun eating my old-time favorite candy. It felt like valentine's day all over again for a minute, well, besides the fact that it wasn't february, it wasn't snowing, there weren't any roses, and my valentine wasn't here...I guess it didn't feel like valentines day at all, except for the fact that I was eating old candy...wishful thinking I guess.
"Catch me if I fall
I'm losing hold,
I can't just carry on this way
And every time I turn away
Lose another blind game...
The idea of perfection holds me,
Suddenly I see you change
Everything at once,
The same,
But the mountain never moves..."
As the day gets closer though, my family is becoming more and more adamant to convince me of how "wrong" I am. My mom has even resorted now to venting to my grandparents, while I believe she secretly hopes that they'll become furious and step into the picture siding with her "offensive attack mode."
Funny how that actually did happen too...I got a letter from them Thursday basically stating that they were furious...kinda odd how I haven't said a word to them about it, though they feel like they know every detail of the situation as if they were actually involved the whole time. Don't worry, I wrote them back, respectfully, and became even more convinced that I am, in fact, making the right move. My negativity is slowly, but surely vanishing. And although I don't think that the worst is over yet (I feel as though I may be only halfway to the worst...), after 2 more days of this, I think that life will become a hell of a lot easier to deal with.
I never thought that I could miss someone as much as I do...it's almost a good feeling. Not that I want to be in this "missing mood" forever by any means, I think I've served my time in that department, and I'm ready for that part to finally be over:)
I would rant about work a little...but I think that we all probably know by now that Saturday = the day that Stephanie is working on the patio...which is never a good start to an optimistic day. I raged enough today that they actually let me leave and I was able to fit in a little "sun time."
Yes, you read that correctly...."sun time." Today should go down in history as the first day I've seen Florida actually warranted in being called "the sunshine state." I was amazed...it actually took me a minute to realize it wasn't my crazy imagination acting up on me again...
I can hardly keep my eyes open right now...I've been up since 7 for some ridiculous meeting at work, then obviously had to stay and waste my time on the patio for awhile. Then of course I thought it would be a good idea to let the sun drain out the remainder of my energy, simply because I don't work again until 4 tomorrow, and who's to say that I can't have a relaxing night watching the sunset, movies, and this pitcher of pina colada quickly become empty. Surprisingly, this has been a pretty enjoyable day...despite what I had to wake up to.
I had some crazy dreams that bugs were crawling all over in my bed...I woke up continuously, and abruptly throughout the night, and even turned the light on a couple times in order to assure myself that the bugs weren't real. Really though, they were crawling on my face and feet and it was kinda creepy...Maybe I really am going crazy. I was actually partially awake still when my alarm went off at 7, so I wasn't nearly as tired as I had expected to be. Not to mention that the sunshine was shining bright through my window...my first thought was if I have to be at work all day, it better be raining by noon.
I found an old bag of conversation hearts, that fortunately hadn't been opened. I think I probably had the intention of saving them for a day like today...I love it when I do stuff like that:) I fell asleep outside under the sun eating my old-time favorite candy. It felt like valentine's day all over again for a minute, well, besides the fact that it wasn't february, it wasn't snowing, there weren't any roses, and my valentine wasn't here...I guess it didn't feel like valentines day at all, except for the fact that I was eating old candy...wishful thinking I guess.
"Catch me if I fall
I'm losing hold,
I can't just carry on this way
And every time I turn away
Lose another blind game...
The idea of perfection holds me,
Suddenly I see you change
Everything at once,
The same,
But the mountain never moves..."
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Hell On Wheels
At last, the optimistic post I was talking about...
I ran out of cinnimon life this morning...but that was after I woke up to a phone call saying that my car still wasn't done.
Where's the optimism? Well, I don't have to pay for it yet:)
My dad called me sweetie when I called him this morning for my insurance information. A better way to start the day than a phone call from my mom I guess.
4 more days...is unfortunately going to feel like 4 more weeks.
My brother is still in Brazil, but comes back this Tuesday...fortunately he's flying through Miami again. The unfortunate part is that it's going to be at 5:30 a.m. and I still won't have a car.
I really shouldn't have made cookies last night since there's no one here to eat them but me. One good thing though, they have oatmeal in 'em, so on a positive note, I'm at least being good to my heart:)
I've converted my old monogrammed stein into a coin jar...maybe now instead of filling it with alcohol, I can fill it with that three hundred dollars I still haven't found...
"Cause yesterday's got nothin' for me
Old pictures that I'll always see
Time just fades the pages
In my book of memories
Prayers in my pocket
And no hand in destiny
I'll keep on movin' along
With no time to plant my feet..."
I ran out of cinnimon life this morning...but that was after I woke up to a phone call saying that my car still wasn't done.
Where's the optimism? Well, I don't have to pay for it yet:)
My dad called me sweetie when I called him this morning for my insurance information. A better way to start the day than a phone call from my mom I guess.
4 more days...is unfortunately going to feel like 4 more weeks.
My brother is still in Brazil, but comes back this Tuesday...fortunately he's flying through Miami again. The unfortunate part is that it's going to be at 5:30 a.m. and I still won't have a car.
I really shouldn't have made cookies last night since there's no one here to eat them but me. One good thing though, they have oatmeal in 'em, so on a positive note, I'm at least being good to my heart:)
I've converted my old monogrammed stein into a coin jar...maybe now instead of filling it with alcohol, I can fill it with that three hundred dollars I still haven't found...
"Cause yesterday's got nothin' for me
Old pictures that I'll always see
Time just fades the pages
In my book of memories
Prayers in my pocket
And no hand in destiny
I'll keep on movin' along
With no time to plant my feet..."
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Turnin' Off The Noise That Makes Me Crazy
I found out last night that this weather isn't going to stop...for probably the rest of the summer. So on that note, I decided to face it, and go play outside today.
Barnes and Noble was a pretty busy place this afternoon, so I got some coffee and chatted it up with some locals. Why was I at Barnes and Noble? Not that I really need a reason besides their having good coffee, but I got my summer reading list in the mail yesterday before I went into work...kind of not awesome....and by kind of I mean really. So needless to say, I had to order a bunch of books, and am already doing work for school.
I still haven't heard anything about my car yet...which is probably a good thing, seeing as how this way, I won't have to come up with the money for it yet. I've actually been doing surprisingly well saving money so far though. I guess not going out to the bar everynight really does help put a significant amount of money into savings.
I got to see a real life cops chase today a couple blocks from my apartment. Apparently it wasn't a big deal, some guy just parked his truck in the middle of the road and was giving people shit about it, so someone called the cops.
My mom finally decided to call me...but it definately didn't show any signs of improvement. She's still raging, and she still hasn't thought about opening her eyes to my feelings/opinions...but regardless...she just ended up saying 'well, you're adult now,' in the most cynical, guilt-trip intended way possible. It was funny actually, because the conversation actually started off pretty normal. Though there was tension, we were basically talking about random things like work, the ridiculous amounts of rain here, and how I'm holding up here on my own. But after she got all that out of the way, I could tell she was thinking of a way to dive into an argument again...then she just said, "well, did you think anymore about how we feel about your 'living situation' ?"
Somehow, it strikes me pretty harshly that she actually thinks I'm completely disregarding how they feel about it. I wouldn't be spending as much time as I am bitching about it if I didn't care how my family felt about the situation...and it kinda makes me mad that she doesn't think I care. Just because I'm not siding with her, and giving into doing things her way doesn't necessarily mean that I haven't at least considered the input. Anyway, it's a dead end at this point. It'll take at least a semester of me not failing out of school to make her see that I can, in fact, balance and prioritize things in my life adequately.
My dad, on the other hand, hasn't said anything to me about how he feels. The only version of my dad's opinion that I've actually heard has been a skewed one I'm sure, one which was filtered through my mom over the phone. At this point, one negative parental view is enough for me, I don't want to play telephone in order to hear parts of the other one.
It's real life now, decisions we make are going to make or break relationships and people's feelings....but I feel that every person who eventually gets out on their own is going to go through it at some point. That may sound pessimistic and all, but it's one thing that's giving me a small shard of thinking that I'm not alone at this point...that other people might have to deal with it too.
Well I'm going to throw on another pot of coffee, and play optimistic for the rest of the afternoon...it's become my new favorite game, though I do know it's just a game...
Anyways...one of these days I'm going to throw up a post that doesn't include any negativity...and I promise that it will be sometime soon, well I hope at least.
"all my dreams...
pass before my eyes a curiosity,
all we do
crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see...
now don't hang on,
nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky...
it slips away,
and all my money won't another minute buy..."
Barnes and Noble was a pretty busy place this afternoon, so I got some coffee and chatted it up with some locals. Why was I at Barnes and Noble? Not that I really need a reason besides their having good coffee, but I got my summer reading list in the mail yesterday before I went into work...kind of not awesome....and by kind of I mean really. So needless to say, I had to order a bunch of books, and am already doing work for school.
I still haven't heard anything about my car yet...which is probably a good thing, seeing as how this way, I won't have to come up with the money for it yet. I've actually been doing surprisingly well saving money so far though. I guess not going out to the bar everynight really does help put a significant amount of money into savings.
I got to see a real life cops chase today a couple blocks from my apartment. Apparently it wasn't a big deal, some guy just parked his truck in the middle of the road and was giving people shit about it, so someone called the cops.
My mom finally decided to call me...but it definately didn't show any signs of improvement. She's still raging, and she still hasn't thought about opening her eyes to my feelings/opinions...but regardless...she just ended up saying 'well, you're adult now,' in the most cynical, guilt-trip intended way possible. It was funny actually, because the conversation actually started off pretty normal. Though there was tension, we were basically talking about random things like work, the ridiculous amounts of rain here, and how I'm holding up here on my own. But after she got all that out of the way, I could tell she was thinking of a way to dive into an argument again...then she just said, "well, did you think anymore about how we feel about your 'living situation' ?"
Somehow, it strikes me pretty harshly that she actually thinks I'm completely disregarding how they feel about it. I wouldn't be spending as much time as I am bitching about it if I didn't care how my family felt about the situation...and it kinda makes me mad that she doesn't think I care. Just because I'm not siding with her, and giving into doing things her way doesn't necessarily mean that I haven't at least considered the input. Anyway, it's a dead end at this point. It'll take at least a semester of me not failing out of school to make her see that I can, in fact, balance and prioritize things in my life adequately.
My dad, on the other hand, hasn't said anything to me about how he feels. The only version of my dad's opinion that I've actually heard has been a skewed one I'm sure, one which was filtered through my mom over the phone. At this point, one negative parental view is enough for me, I don't want to play telephone in order to hear parts of the other one.
It's real life now, decisions we make are going to make or break relationships and people's feelings....but I feel that every person who eventually gets out on their own is going to go through it at some point. That may sound pessimistic and all, but it's one thing that's giving me a small shard of thinking that I'm not alone at this point...that other people might have to deal with it too.
Well I'm going to throw on another pot of coffee, and play optimistic for the rest of the afternoon...it's become my new favorite game, though I do know it's just a game...
Anyways...one of these days I'm going to throw up a post that doesn't include any negativity...and I promise that it will be sometime soon, well I hope at least.
"all my dreams...
pass before my eyes a curiosity,
all we do
crumbles to the ground though we refuse to see...
now don't hang on,
nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky...
it slips away,
and all my money won't another minute buy..."
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Summer Unfolded Like A Tapestry
How many Saturdays am I going to have to stand around and look at the weather?
Honestly... Two shifts of mine went straight to hell due to the extensive rain forecast...and though I wasn't really ok with it, I was excited enough to forget about it when I found my electric bill in the mail when I got home.
No, I don't like getting/paying bills, but for some reason, although I use my AC all the time, day/night, they only decided to charge me 50 dollars for the past month...which isn't that much more than I payed in Holland. When I referred to "budgeting" in my last post, electric bills were estimated for at least 150 dollars a month...so that's where the excitement came from when I got the last one.
I talked to my brother this morning, hes doing well, and claims that he doesn't want to come home from Brazil, but I'm sure I'll see him again at some point. He actually told me that they were flying back through Miami on the way home...so hopefully I'll be able to see him this time...it'd be kind of awesome.
My manager told me that since I've gotten shafted on my last two weekend schedules, that I can write my own schedule for the following week. I can't decide if that's a good or a bad thing, because initially, I hate going into work. I don't mind it once I get there, it's just getting ready and going there that I'm not a fan of. So I was thinking that if I make my own schedule, I'm going to be mad at myself on the nights that I scheduled myself, but really don't want to go in. It's kind of a conundrum...and I think I might just say pass on the situation...because honestly, I don't really care that much anyways. I'm already used to making a schedule around work, and I'd rather not switch to trying to make work around a schedule.
I've been kind of meloncholy over the last couple days...but I'm over it. Although my parents are still on my case about making "the worst decisions of my life," I'm trying my best to not let them get to me. My mom must be running out of ways to personally attack me, since she's recently resorted to running in circles about the whole situation, but I feel as though if I grit my teeth and bear it for a couple more conversations, she'll have exhausted the rest of her options.
I just made kind of a big deal about nothing...it's just hard to be happy about life when all the people I grew up loving/looking up to/learning from are currently condemning it...anyways...I hope it eventually passes, along with this long string of thunderstorms and rain.
"Remember all the lessons fed to me?
me the young sponge, so ready to agree
years have gone, I recognize the walking dead
now aware that I'm alive and way ahead
I see you looking
I know that you're thinking
that I'll never go anywhere
the things that I've done
and the things that I've seen
I don't really expect you to care
Too bad the things that make you mad
are my favorite things"
p.s. (happy birthday joe:))
Honestly... Two shifts of mine went straight to hell due to the extensive rain forecast...and though I wasn't really ok with it, I was excited enough to forget about it when I found my electric bill in the mail when I got home.
No, I don't like getting/paying bills, but for some reason, although I use my AC all the time, day/night, they only decided to charge me 50 dollars for the past month...which isn't that much more than I payed in Holland. When I referred to "budgeting" in my last post, electric bills were estimated for at least 150 dollars a month...so that's where the excitement came from when I got the last one.
I talked to my brother this morning, hes doing well, and claims that he doesn't want to come home from Brazil, but I'm sure I'll see him again at some point. He actually told me that they were flying back through Miami on the way home...so hopefully I'll be able to see him this time...it'd be kind of awesome.
My manager told me that since I've gotten shafted on my last two weekend schedules, that I can write my own schedule for the following week. I can't decide if that's a good or a bad thing, because initially, I hate going into work. I don't mind it once I get there, it's just getting ready and going there that I'm not a fan of. So I was thinking that if I make my own schedule, I'm going to be mad at myself on the nights that I scheduled myself, but really don't want to go in. It's kind of a conundrum...and I think I might just say pass on the situation...because honestly, I don't really care that much anyways. I'm already used to making a schedule around work, and I'd rather not switch to trying to make work around a schedule.
I've been kind of meloncholy over the last couple days...but I'm over it. Although my parents are still on my case about making "the worst decisions of my life," I'm trying my best to not let them get to me. My mom must be running out of ways to personally attack me, since she's recently resorted to running in circles about the whole situation, but I feel as though if I grit my teeth and bear it for a couple more conversations, she'll have exhausted the rest of her options.
I just made kind of a big deal about nothing...it's just hard to be happy about life when all the people I grew up loving/looking up to/learning from are currently condemning it...anyways...I hope it eventually passes, along with this long string of thunderstorms and rain.
"Remember all the lessons fed to me?
me the young sponge, so ready to agree
years have gone, I recognize the walking dead
now aware that I'm alive and way ahead
I see you looking
I know that you're thinking
that I'll never go anywhere
the things that I've done
and the things that I've seen
I don't really expect you to care
Too bad the things that make you mad
are my favorite things"
p.s. (happy birthday joe:))
Friday, June 17, 2005
I'm Sleeping Under Strange, Strange Skies
Well my day off has been everything I'd hoped it would be except the fact that I've been cooped up in my apartment due to the sheets of rain that are outside my window flooding the streets, and also the minor problem of me not having a car...but regardless, it's been nice to just kick back and do nothing.
Last night was kind ridiculous at work. They put me outside cocktailing...which I thought would be fun until it started raining. Nonetheless, it was 'martini night' or some shit, so I had to stay out there until the band finished playing...which wasn't until about midnight. People got hammered, and started causing a ruccus, but it made for a pretty interesting night. I finally got to see first-hand how "high-rolling" people are in Miami. Makes me feel like a little bit of an outsider...I could never justify spending 2 hundred some dollars on wine while sitting there watching a local band outside in the rain. Well, I guess if 2 hundred dollars was "pocket change," like it is to most people here, then I may feel differently.
Speaking of pocket change, my car's going to end up costing about a thousand dollars...not really pocket change, but I guess I see the irony. Though I can't justify a 2 hundred dollar wine tab, I can somehow justify a thousand dollars in a car that I drive hardly ever...basically on a car that I realized I really don't need here. Anyways, bitching about it isn't going to bring the price down...this, unfortunately, isn't a situation I can negociate my way out of.
I got an exciting piece of mail today about the "gummy food chain"...it made me laugh my ass off for a good 10 straight minutes...and seeing it posted next to my desk simply increses it's humor value to me.
I keep getting more and more serious warnings about my first year in school. Some say I'm going to die, literally, and some say that I won't see people outside my classes until I finish. Apparently, my new best friend will soon become Microsoft Word, and my most valued/visited place will be the library. Sounds like an amazing schedule to me...right...I just hope it's worth it in the end.
I started worrying today about my loans. I was doing some "budgeting" today, and unless I think I can live off $8,000 a year, I think I may need to take out a little more money. Besides the fact that my parents are probably out of the picture in that department...I don't want to feel like I need to pull them back in because I don't have enough money for coffee anymore.
Even though it's still summer, and I don't start school for another couple months, I've become increasingly worried about how I'm going to deal with it when it gets here. I know I'm a freak and all when it comes to school, but I don't feel like this is going to be the situation where you can argue your way for anything, or slack a few days and get away with it. Not to mention sleeping in the back of class and having that be o.k., or saying "pass" when the professor calls on you for something you haven't read. Anyway, it's not here yet, and I'm rambling...so I'm going to kick back and watch a movie until the sun feels like setting...
I'm starting to miss MIchigan a little...the small feeling that this was some sort of long vacation has recently left me...
"Well I stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I got a feeling it's right...
If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no makebelieving..."
Last night was kind ridiculous at work. They put me outside cocktailing...which I thought would be fun until it started raining. Nonetheless, it was 'martini night' or some shit, so I had to stay out there until the band finished playing...which wasn't until about midnight. People got hammered, and started causing a ruccus, but it made for a pretty interesting night. I finally got to see first-hand how "high-rolling" people are in Miami. Makes me feel like a little bit of an outsider...I could never justify spending 2 hundred some dollars on wine while sitting there watching a local band outside in the rain. Well, I guess if 2 hundred dollars was "pocket change," like it is to most people here, then I may feel differently.
Speaking of pocket change, my car's going to end up costing about a thousand dollars...not really pocket change, but I guess I see the irony. Though I can't justify a 2 hundred dollar wine tab, I can somehow justify a thousand dollars in a car that I drive hardly ever...basically on a car that I realized I really don't need here. Anyways, bitching about it isn't going to bring the price down...this, unfortunately, isn't a situation I can negociate my way out of.
I got an exciting piece of mail today about the "gummy food chain"...it made me laugh my ass off for a good 10 straight minutes...and seeing it posted next to my desk simply increses it's humor value to me.
Although it's been storming all day...within the past 10 minutes all the clouds have somehow dissappeared, leaving what I hope to be conditions for an awesome sunset:) I wish I had some company to watch it with...but I guess it leaves bonding time for my cat and I (who by the way was sleeping on top of my head when I woke up this morning...) I don't know how that's comfortable for her, but it sure as hell wasn't comfortable for me. I don't know if it's all in my mind, but I've had a ridiculous headache all day long...one that even a handful of asprin and 2 pots of coffee couldn't cure...kind of a downfall
I keep getting more and more serious warnings about my first year in school. Some say I'm going to die, literally, and some say that I won't see people outside my classes until I finish. Apparently, my new best friend will soon become Microsoft Word, and my most valued/visited place will be the library. Sounds like an amazing schedule to me...right...I just hope it's worth it in the end.
I started worrying today about my loans. I was doing some "budgeting" today, and unless I think I can live off $8,000 a year, I think I may need to take out a little more money. Besides the fact that my parents are probably out of the picture in that department...I don't want to feel like I need to pull them back in because I don't have enough money for coffee anymore.
Even though it's still summer, and I don't start school for another couple months, I've become increasingly worried about how I'm going to deal with it when it gets here. I know I'm a freak and all when it comes to school, but I don't feel like this is going to be the situation where you can argue your way for anything, or slack a few days and get away with it. Not to mention sleeping in the back of class and having that be o.k., or saying "pass" when the professor calls on you for something you haven't read. Anyway, it's not here yet, and I'm rambling...so I'm going to kick back and watch a movie until the sun feels like setting...
I'm starting to miss MIchigan a little...the small feeling that this was some sort of long vacation has recently left me...
"Well I stand at the crossroads
Of highroads and lowroads
And I got a feeling it's right...
If it's real what I'm feeling
There's no makebelieving..."
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I Wake Alone...And Pretend That I Am Finally Home
My brother is in Brazil for the next 2 weeks...that seems pretty wild to me, my dad (who is thankfully still speaking to me) told me that they were taking a cruise down the amazon right now. It's just wierd to me to think about that. I'm sitting here eating gummies and drinking wine, my brother is on the amazon river in another country, and God only knows how many other crazy things are going on in the world right now...it's kinda hard to imagine.
On another note, I can definately tell you what I was doing at about 1 o'clock this afternoon. Just as lunch was starting to slow down at work, here rolls in the party from hell. These people probably spoke a combined 4 different languages, obviously none that I understood...but anyway, people did in fact end up speaking English. 5 adults, and 11 kids...yes, count em again...11 kids. Soon becoming the neediest most demanding table I have ever served in my life, the man at my other table began raging because I didn't bring him his 3rd beer fast enough...Anyway, I guess I have to be thankful that 'fine dining' means an automatic 18% gratuity on parties of 8 or more. It was the only thing getting me through the afternoon...and ended up being almost worth the hassle. I don't think the hostess here knows me well enough yet to know how I feel about other people's screaming, demanding, high-rolling kids...
Thankfully, I didn't have to go back in tonight. This 'on-call' thing is gonna have to stop. They actually schedule people "on-call" in case someone decides to call in sick at the last minute. So I had to work my whole shift, until 4, when I found out if I got to clock out and go home, or stay on the clock and work through dinner...and after those kids? I think that place is kinda lucky that I didn't have to deal with the emotions that would've arose if they told me I couldn't go home after that.
Re-reading this post makes it sound like I'm in a pretty shitty mood. Let me first point out that this past week has, in fact, been pretty shitty...but let me also point out that although the worst is hopefully over at this point, the best is yet to come...in about a week and a half.
Over the past 24 hours, my mom has spoken at least a combined 2 1/2 hours with the two people closest to me at this point in my life, and as a result, has apparently decided to take a break from calling me...which is fine, do what you gotta do I guess, but I think she realizes now that I grew up awhile ago, and that her threatening me isn't a very mature way to go about the situation. So at this point, she's either scheming up another mischevious plan, or trying her best to get over it. I'm obviously hoping for the latter, but again, God only knows what's going on in other places in the world right now. I'm over it, and getting on with my life, in the way that I feel is best at this point, and hope that my family sticks with me through it, but regardless, I'm thankful for those who have helped me deal along the way...it really means a lot.
My phone broke yesterday...which led me to walk down the street and unfortunately shell out money for a new one. Seeing as how a phone is my only connection to the people I love right now, I felt it was essential. Anyways, I accidently threw away the box without cutting off the barcode on the bottom, so I basically threw away the 50 dollars I would have gotten from the rebate. I realized just now that I've bitched about losing money before, so I don't want to hear anything about it again...I'm an idiot, I should've saved everything, I know. (And yes, I did go look to see if the garbage was picked up yet...and unfortunately for me, it was...between the 3 hours that I tossed it, and realized it...)
My car is running itself into the ground. I'm thinking about fixing it up to at least the point where I can sell it. I can't justify paying insurance on a car that I've only used to take to the airport on two separate occasions. I've been here for over a month and have driven it twice...I may as well give it away and I'd save money. Anyways, it's going to cost me a few hundred to get it fixed, so I'm probably going to feel that pretty soon...can't wait:)
It finally stopped storming here...but I found out yesterday that hurricane season lasts until November 1st...at that time in Michigan we may very well have a foot of snow on the ground. I guess I shouldn't get too excited that the first one didn't hit us, seeing as how there's going to be another 5 long months for that chance:) Oh well...I ain't scared...like I told someone today...I'll joust for it.
I give that two non-casted arms in the air.
"If you have a part of me,
will you take your time...
even if i come back,
even if I die,
is there some idea
to replace my life..."
On another note, I can definately tell you what I was doing at about 1 o'clock this afternoon. Just as lunch was starting to slow down at work, here rolls in the party from hell. These people probably spoke a combined 4 different languages, obviously none that I understood...but anyway, people did in fact end up speaking English. 5 adults, and 11 kids...yes, count em again...11 kids. Soon becoming the neediest most demanding table I have ever served in my life, the man at my other table began raging because I didn't bring him his 3rd beer fast enough...Anyway, I guess I have to be thankful that 'fine dining' means an automatic 18% gratuity on parties of 8 or more. It was the only thing getting me through the afternoon...and ended up being almost worth the hassle. I don't think the hostess here knows me well enough yet to know how I feel about other people's screaming, demanding, high-rolling kids...
Thankfully, I didn't have to go back in tonight. This 'on-call' thing is gonna have to stop. They actually schedule people "on-call" in case someone decides to call in sick at the last minute. So I had to work my whole shift, until 4, when I found out if I got to clock out and go home, or stay on the clock and work through dinner...and after those kids? I think that place is kinda lucky that I didn't have to deal with the emotions that would've arose if they told me I couldn't go home after that.
Re-reading this post makes it sound like I'm in a pretty shitty mood. Let me first point out that this past week has, in fact, been pretty shitty...but let me also point out that although the worst is hopefully over at this point, the best is yet to come...in about a week and a half.
Over the past 24 hours, my mom has spoken at least a combined 2 1/2 hours with the two people closest to me at this point in my life, and as a result, has apparently decided to take a break from calling me...which is fine, do what you gotta do I guess, but I think she realizes now that I grew up awhile ago, and that her threatening me isn't a very mature way to go about the situation. So at this point, she's either scheming up another mischevious plan, or trying her best to get over it. I'm obviously hoping for the latter, but again, God only knows what's going on in other places in the world right now. I'm over it, and getting on with my life, in the way that I feel is best at this point, and hope that my family sticks with me through it, but regardless, I'm thankful for those who have helped me deal along the way...it really means a lot.
My phone broke yesterday...which led me to walk down the street and unfortunately shell out money for a new one. Seeing as how a phone is my only connection to the people I love right now, I felt it was essential. Anyways, I accidently threw away the box without cutting off the barcode on the bottom, so I basically threw away the 50 dollars I would have gotten from the rebate. I realized just now that I've bitched about losing money before, so I don't want to hear anything about it again...I'm an idiot, I should've saved everything, I know. (And yes, I did go look to see if the garbage was picked up yet...and unfortunately for me, it was...between the 3 hours that I tossed it, and realized it...)
My car is running itself into the ground. I'm thinking about fixing it up to at least the point where I can sell it. I can't justify paying insurance on a car that I've only used to take to the airport on two separate occasions. I've been here for over a month and have driven it twice...I may as well give it away and I'd save money. Anyways, it's going to cost me a few hundred to get it fixed, so I'm probably going to feel that pretty soon...can't wait:)
It finally stopped storming here...but I found out yesterday that hurricane season lasts until November 1st...at that time in Michigan we may very well have a foot of snow on the ground. I guess I shouldn't get too excited that the first one didn't hit us, seeing as how there's going to be another 5 long months for that chance:) Oh well...I ain't scared...like I told someone today...I'll joust for it.
I give that two non-casted arms in the air.
"If you have a part of me,
will you take your time...
even if i come back,
even if I die,
is there some idea
to replace my life..."
Monday, June 13, 2005
Just When I Was Starting To Get Comfortable...
...shit hit the fan...hard...
But why wouldn't it? Not like I was expecting everything to be easy, but I never thought it would come to me doubting I could happily go home for Christmas or anything...or even go home anytime without "getting thrown in a trunk and taken to a secluded island until I get my head on straight."
(By the way that last quote was taken verbatim from a conversation I had with my mom.)
So with that said, if anyone wants to play Christmas, exchange presents, and let me believe in Santa for a day or two, let me know...
I've had some pretty unfathomable ultimatums thrown out on the table over the last couple days, involving student loans, lease co-signings, car insurance, money, and last but not least, my family's acceptance of me as a person. That may sound overly dramatic, but let me assure you, it's real...as far as my parents being sober and with it when it was said, which I'm pretty positive that they were.
I've become an "unreasonable basket case" over the last few days...which I think is awesome, because the outcome of this situation still appears to include a new Florida resident. I'm just happy that my parents fortunately aren't able to control the decisions of others. I'll raise one up for that.
Unfortunately, pina coladas can only do so much, and only for so long, or until you run out I guess...which down here is basically when you want to stop paying for them. Good thing I told myself I wouldn't use my credit card unless it was an emergency...on second thought, what exactly classifies as an "emergency"...? Come to think of it, a credit card may have been warrented in the situation...
Ironically enough, my brother was supposed to have a 4-hour layover in Miami, during which I was going to meet up with him at the airport and have dinner or something. Unfortunately, Mona Shores hasn't stepped up on the scale of organizational skills and they ended up missing their first flight. Catching a later one only left him with about an hour here, which I found out about 5 minutes after they landed. If I continued to explain this in detail, including the time frame and the math, it would come out to this: I didn't get to see my brother today, and it made me really sad.
I do, though, have the whole day off tomorrow, so I'll actually have time to get to UPS and the bank and stuff like that...maybe if it's as sunny as it was today I'll even have time to hit the beach:) That would make me smile kind of a lot.
But with my luck, it'll be pouring rain and storming, with severe weather warnings, and I'll have to walk to UPS and the bank in those conditions seeing as how my car's still in the shop getting fixed from that lucky hit and run/engine breakdown that'll probably lead to me having to start an illegal business in order to pay for it.
Here's to being optimistic!
Breakin' my back just to know your name...17 tracks and I've had it with this game...
But why wouldn't it? Not like I was expecting everything to be easy, but I never thought it would come to me doubting I could happily go home for Christmas or anything...or even go home anytime without "getting thrown in a trunk and taken to a secluded island until I get my head on straight."
(By the way that last quote was taken verbatim from a conversation I had with my mom.)
So with that said, if anyone wants to play Christmas, exchange presents, and let me believe in Santa for a day or two, let me know...
I've had some pretty unfathomable ultimatums thrown out on the table over the last couple days, involving student loans, lease co-signings, car insurance, money, and last but not least, my family's acceptance of me as a person. That may sound overly dramatic, but let me assure you, it's real...as far as my parents being sober and with it when it was said, which I'm pretty positive that they were.
I've become an "unreasonable basket case" over the last few days...which I think is awesome, because the outcome of this situation still appears to include a new Florida resident. I'm just happy that my parents fortunately aren't able to control the decisions of others. I'll raise one up for that.
Unfortunately, pina coladas can only do so much, and only for so long, or until you run out I guess...which down here is basically when you want to stop paying for them. Good thing I told myself I wouldn't use my credit card unless it was an emergency...on second thought, what exactly classifies as an "emergency"...? Come to think of it, a credit card may have been warrented in the situation...
Ironically enough, my brother was supposed to have a 4-hour layover in Miami, during which I was going to meet up with him at the airport and have dinner or something. Unfortunately, Mona Shores hasn't stepped up on the scale of organizational skills and they ended up missing their first flight. Catching a later one only left him with about an hour here, which I found out about 5 minutes after they landed. If I continued to explain this in detail, including the time frame and the math, it would come out to this: I didn't get to see my brother today, and it made me really sad.
I do, though, have the whole day off tomorrow, so I'll actually have time to get to UPS and the bank and stuff like that...maybe if it's as sunny as it was today I'll even have time to hit the beach:) That would make me smile kind of a lot.
But with my luck, it'll be pouring rain and storming, with severe weather warnings, and I'll have to walk to UPS and the bank in those conditions seeing as how my car's still in the shop getting fixed from that lucky hit and run/engine breakdown that'll probably lead to me having to start an illegal business in order to pay for it.
Here's to being optimistic!
Breakin' my back just to know your name...17 tracks and I've had it with this game...
Friday, June 10, 2005
Sunshine State My Ass...
Tropical storms...f-ing A...I've been experiencing the awesome sheets of rain and tornado warnings they've been producing for South Florida over the past couple weeks...the rain hasn't really stopped, and unfortunately I'm losing my tan...besides the fact that the streets get kinda flooded and the wind can almost knock you over...but other than that it's been pretty:)
My parents are livid about my potential living situation...but I'm holding out for the possibility that they'll get over it. I haven't agreed with them on a few occasions recently...but I'm just hoping that it's one of those phase things that'll pass by eventually.
Anyway, I'm going to start counting my pennies to get my car fixed...I think my engine's pretty jacked now too, along wth the back door and the e-brake. I could make an extensive list of needed repairs, but I can only afford the essentials at this point. The drive to the service center today was about the same (if not worse) than my crazy drive to the airport last week.
I had some pretty wicked nightmares last night...kinda creepy. I'll save the details for the sake of morality, but if anyone out there is playing voo-doo on me, please refrain...;)
Well there's just been a warning to move away from the window and watch out for small trees and branches coming loose due to strong wind gusts, so in that case, i'll go ahead and do that...
My parents are livid about my potential living situation...but I'm holding out for the possibility that they'll get over it. I haven't agreed with them on a few occasions recently...but I'm just hoping that it's one of those phase things that'll pass by eventually.
Anyway, I'm going to start counting my pennies to get my car fixed...I think my engine's pretty jacked now too, along wth the back door and the e-brake. I could make an extensive list of needed repairs, but I can only afford the essentials at this point. The drive to the service center today was about the same (if not worse) than my crazy drive to the airport last week.
I had some pretty wicked nightmares last night...kinda creepy. I'll save the details for the sake of morality, but if anyone out there is playing voo-doo on me, please refrain...;)
Well there's just been a warning to move away from the window and watch out for small trees and branches coming loose due to strong wind gusts, so in that case, i'll go ahead and do that...
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Thunderstorms and Bliss
I love June. I mean, I have loved everything about June so far, besides going to the airport today and having to drive back alone. But it looks like the next time I go, I'll be picking up a new resident for the sunshine state...which is kind of awesome.
My car runs like hell on wheels. In fact, when I drove it to the airport the first time it was chugging like a go cart and I had smoke coming out of my vents everytime I turned on the air to the point where I couldn't see out of the windows. I thought for a couple minutes that I wouldn't make it there, but after the rain let up and I learned how to drive with my head out the window I was ok...just kidding.
The storms have been pretty abundant over the last couple weeks, but it's kind of awesome to watch the lightning from my apartment:) Hurricane season is quickly approaching...I'll just bolt the door.
My cat is still crazy, but at least she's not eating internet cables...as of now...
I have a newly developed infatuation with pina coladas. I'll learn how to make pitchers at home and it'll be all over...maybe I'll get over it before school starts;) Or maybe not...it'll be like an outlet...halfway kidding.
Orange juice is kind of awesome. And I kind of like string cheese too. Together, the possibilities are endless. Sick. Maybe I should write someone's name on that cheese...
I think I successfully found a bank that doesn't suck. And it's kind of nice to have a job that has allowed me to put some money in it...it's been going well, and the managers aren't on the verge of firing people everytime I work so that seems like a good start...I got your good start right here...
My car runs like hell on wheels. In fact, when I drove it to the airport the first time it was chugging like a go cart and I had smoke coming out of my vents everytime I turned on the air to the point where I couldn't see out of the windows. I thought for a couple minutes that I wouldn't make it there, but after the rain let up and I learned how to drive with my head out the window I was ok...just kidding.
The storms have been pretty abundant over the last couple weeks, but it's kind of awesome to watch the lightning from my apartment:) Hurricane season is quickly approaching...I'll just bolt the door.
My cat is still crazy, but at least she's not eating internet cables...as of now...
I have a newly developed infatuation with pina coladas. I'll learn how to make pitchers at home and it'll be all over...maybe I'll get over it before school starts;) Or maybe not...it'll be like an outlet...halfway kidding.
Orange juice is kind of awesome. And I kind of like string cheese too. Together, the possibilities are endless. Sick. Maybe I should write someone's name on that cheese...
I think I successfully found a bank that doesn't suck. And it's kind of nice to have a job that has allowed me to put some money in it...it's been going well, and the managers aren't on the verge of firing people everytime I work so that seems like a good start...I got your good start right here...
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
The Day I Thought Would Never Come
Wow...what a week. I've been surprisingly busy, but it seems to have all come to a much needed end of bliss...after tomorrow.
I finally passed all my server/bar tests today...well, finally took them. Fortunately, I passed as well, so I can now tell you in detail, about all the Mahi Mahi dishes we have on the menu...fantastic. A skill I loved to think I would never have...
Anyways, I have a double tomorrow, two training shifts in a row. Again, the bliss doesn't start until after tomorrow. I won't get out until probably midnight...which is fine, because then I can get back, and get a good nights sleep, and prepare for the five straight days (at least) that I don't have to work!!!
And...if that isn't enough to put a smile on my face, I get to take a trip to Miami airport on Wednesday afternoon to pick up a much anticipated visitor...;) Joe will be here for a week, which will be awesome, though I feel as though I'm still in between that tourist/local status so I'll have to see what I can do:)
My car still isn't fixed...tear...but on a lighter note, I can put my hair in a ponytail which is a plus seeing as how August in Florida has been described as "a month-long heat wave." I can't wait. But I'm surprisingly used to the hot weather. I can even wear long pants like the locals...wow that sounds ridiculous.
Someone told me today that people up North have it all backwards...apparently, when it's hot, you should drink something hot, like tea, because then the heat will be "turned away from you..." or something like that. I don't buy it.
Caleb, if that tea drinking thing you were talking about is true, the fill that whole smily face cup up again!! It's so good once it hits your lips!! Everything will work out for you, I promise. Remember when you used to always tell me that? Well I'm telling you right now... maybe not now, but it will be:)
Anyways, I need to get to bed. One more busy day...one...more...day...:)
p.s.- my cat still eats internet cables.
I finally passed all my server/bar tests today...well, finally took them. Fortunately, I passed as well, so I can now tell you in detail, about all the Mahi Mahi dishes we have on the menu...fantastic. A skill I loved to think I would never have...
Anyways, I have a double tomorrow, two training shifts in a row. Again, the bliss doesn't start until after tomorrow. I won't get out until probably midnight...which is fine, because then I can get back, and get a good nights sleep, and prepare for the five straight days (at least) that I don't have to work!!!
And...if that isn't enough to put a smile on my face, I get to take a trip to Miami airport on Wednesday afternoon to pick up a much anticipated visitor...;) Joe will be here for a week, which will be awesome, though I feel as though I'm still in between that tourist/local status so I'll have to see what I can do:)
My car still isn't fixed...tear...but on a lighter note, I can put my hair in a ponytail which is a plus seeing as how August in Florida has been described as "a month-long heat wave." I can't wait. But I'm surprisingly used to the hot weather. I can even wear long pants like the locals...wow that sounds ridiculous.
Someone told me today that people up North have it all backwards...apparently, when it's hot, you should drink something hot, like tea, because then the heat will be "turned away from you..." or something like that. I don't buy it.
Caleb, if that tea drinking thing you were talking about is true, the fill that whole smily face cup up again!! It's so good once it hits your lips!! Everything will work out for you, I promise. Remember when you used to always tell me that? Well I'm telling you right now... maybe not now, but it will be:)
Anyways, I need to get to bed. One more busy day...one...more...day...:)
p.s.- my cat still eats internet cables.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Butterflies
So I've realized that I post a little more than usual, which probably has something to do with the fact that I go into work at 2, so it doesn't leave a whole lot of time in the morning after raging to the school and the phone company, and/or anyone else who's been trying to take away from my excitement since I've been here. Anyways, it just leaves me more time in the morning to post about random, uninteresting things that probably only I care to hear about.
I get to see Joe again next week, and I almost feel like I'm going on a first date again...I'm kinda nervous, but ridiculously excited. It'll have been about 3 weeks since the last time he saw me, I hope the lighter hair and tan will be acceptable;)
My new job is going well, training is kind of hellish, but it's alright. They surprisingly gave me a lot of time off next week, after hearing that I had a "visitor" coming into town. In that sense, they seem to be nothing like Carino's, who would've probably scheduled me doubles the whole week.
Speaking of Carino's, the self addressed envelope that I left them before I left (to mail my check in) was still sitting there next to my check when I called them last night to check on its whereabouts. Checks came out May 12...the math is almost depressing.
I was forced against my own will to eat raw tuna yesterday at work. Well, it wasn't that dramatic, but apparently it is a delicacy down here or something. I wasn't appalled at the taste, but combined with the sight of it, I felt a little uneasy.
My cat loves it here, almost too much. She even brings things to me that she wants to play with. You should see it, she'll jump almost 5 feet in the air for some little wand thingy that she has. I think she turned into a mutant during that long trip down here in the car.
Anyone who knows me at all should be surprised that I actually do "active" things on a daily basis. I've only driven my car once since I got here, ironically the day it got hit, but anyway; I walk everywhere and bike every night. The beach is getting to be almost a "bearable" ride for me. The sunset is worth it. I hope the fact that the forecast for the next 9 days now, isolated thunderstorms and severe lightning, doesn't put a damper on things.
Time to find another bank...hopefully one that will screw me more than 5/3 did, cause if it's possible, that would be simply amazing. I love banks that falsely overdraw people's accounts for fun. Anyway, no use getting worked up about it, I'll just grit my teeth and write another sticky note. It may as well be my new wallpaper...
On that note, throw another pot of coffee on...
I get to see Joe again next week, and I almost feel like I'm going on a first date again...I'm kinda nervous, but ridiculously excited. It'll have been about 3 weeks since the last time he saw me, I hope the lighter hair and tan will be acceptable;)
My new job is going well, training is kind of hellish, but it's alright. They surprisingly gave me a lot of time off next week, after hearing that I had a "visitor" coming into town. In that sense, they seem to be nothing like Carino's, who would've probably scheduled me doubles the whole week.
Speaking of Carino's, the self addressed envelope that I left them before I left (to mail my check in) was still sitting there next to my check when I called them last night to check on its whereabouts. Checks came out May 12...the math is almost depressing.
I was forced against my own will to eat raw tuna yesterday at work. Well, it wasn't that dramatic, but apparently it is a delicacy down here or something. I wasn't appalled at the taste, but combined with the sight of it, I felt a little uneasy.
My cat loves it here, almost too much. She even brings things to me that she wants to play with. You should see it, she'll jump almost 5 feet in the air for some little wand thingy that she has. I think she turned into a mutant during that long trip down here in the car.
Anyone who knows me at all should be surprised that I actually do "active" things on a daily basis. I've only driven my car once since I got here, ironically the day it got hit, but anyway; I walk everywhere and bike every night. The beach is getting to be almost a "bearable" ride for me. The sunset is worth it. I hope the fact that the forecast for the next 9 days now, isolated thunderstorms and severe lightning, doesn't put a damper on things.
Time to find another bank...hopefully one that will screw me more than 5/3 did, cause if it's possible, that would be simply amazing. I love banks that falsely overdraw people's accounts for fun. Anyway, no use getting worked up about it, I'll just grit my teeth and write another sticky note. It may as well be my new wallpaper...
On that note, throw another pot of coffee on...
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Our Verdict: Reinstatement
So I had a funny thing happen to me the other day. For a couple days, I was actually no longer accepted to Miami Law School. Apparently they had misplaced my tuition deposit, leading them to think I never made one, and therefore could potentially give my seat to someone on the waiting list. Anyway, everything worked out, but needless to say, it was kind of a scare seeing as how I had just relocated to the city. A small part of me thought I would be coming back to Michigan after all.
I start my new job today...that should be fun:) Something new to add in the schedule. The only downfall is that "Marino's" has too much of a resemblence to "Carino's," which I wanted to get away from altogether, but we'll see if they can outdo them at least a little.
It's kinda wierd, not that I left at a 'freezing' time in Michigan or anything, but to see a weather forecast that actually has flames coming off the thermometer. Kinda scary at first, but it surprised me how much I actually got used to it. It's about high noon, overcast, and a high 87 degrees, but I can't wait to get outside:)
Just to keep the list of city perks going: there is a candy store here that has more gummies that you could ever imagine. And if you know me well enough, you know how I feel about gummies. I'm talking: foot-long gummy worms, gummy superheros, tarantulas, lizards, palm trees, teeth!, bats, ABC's, man the list goes on....but drumroll for the one that sticks out in my mind - chocolate covered gummies:) I felt like I was in heaven when I rolled in there. Aside from gummies, they have enough candy to keep everyone here on a sugar high for at least a week.
Caleb - I'm drinking out of that coffee cup right now, and the smile on my face is bigger than the one on there. So thank you for that.
Wow the forecast says it's going to severely thunderstorm for the next 8 days...I'd like to see that...
Starbucks iced coffee drinks can shed light on any mood...just thought I'd share that:)
I start my new job today...that should be fun:) Something new to add in the schedule. The only downfall is that "Marino's" has too much of a resemblence to "Carino's," which I wanted to get away from altogether, but we'll see if they can outdo them at least a little.
It's kinda wierd, not that I left at a 'freezing' time in Michigan or anything, but to see a weather forecast that actually has flames coming off the thermometer. Kinda scary at first, but it surprised me how much I actually got used to it. It's about high noon, overcast, and a high 87 degrees, but I can't wait to get outside:)
Just to keep the list of city perks going: there is a candy store here that has more gummies that you could ever imagine. And if you know me well enough, you know how I feel about gummies. I'm talking: foot-long gummy worms, gummy superheros, tarantulas, lizards, palm trees, teeth!, bats, ABC's, man the list goes on....but drumroll for the one that sticks out in my mind - chocolate covered gummies:) I felt like I was in heaven when I rolled in there. Aside from gummies, they have enough candy to keep everyone here on a sugar high for at least a week.
Caleb - I'm drinking out of that coffee cup right now, and the smile on my face is bigger than the one on there. So thank you for that.
Wow the forecast says it's going to severely thunderstorm for the next 8 days...I'd like to see that...
Starbucks iced coffee drinks can shed light on any mood...just thought I'd share that:)
Friday, May 20, 2005
I Can't Believe I Missed It!!!
Wow...if you need another perk to this gorgeous city...it's this:
Yesterday my mom and I went galavanting around downtown...rode the metro and whatnot...and ended up at this phenomenal mall...with palm trees in it:)
But the catch is this: We walked around and shopped for hours, only to get home and realize that although we had a wonderful dinner in the food court, THERE IS A CHEESECAKE FACTORY HERE!!!
Yes, that's right, I thought that was only a blessing to be enjoyed by awesome cities like Chicago, but alas, there is one right here in Miami:) (about 5 minutes away from my house)...needless to say, I plan on making a much needed appearance tonight:)
Other than the guy next door who cooks bacon every morning that smells like decaying dead things, everything is wonderful. Although I'm tan, settled, unpacked, and a little unfamiliar, everything seems to be working out pretty well. I'm starting to feel a little more like a local. Preparing for hurricane season and everything;)
But I miss a lot too...:( So try not to forget about me down here...:)
Yesterday my mom and I went galavanting around downtown...rode the metro and whatnot...and ended up at this phenomenal mall...with palm trees in it:)
But the catch is this: We walked around and shopped for hours, only to get home and realize that although we had a wonderful dinner in the food court, THERE IS A CHEESECAKE FACTORY HERE!!!
Yes, that's right, I thought that was only a blessing to be enjoyed by awesome cities like Chicago, but alas, there is one right here in Miami:) (about 5 minutes away from my house)...needless to say, I plan on making a much needed appearance tonight:)
Other than the guy next door who cooks bacon every morning that smells like decaying dead things, everything is wonderful. Although I'm tan, settled, unpacked, and a little unfamiliar, everything seems to be working out pretty well. I'm starting to feel a little more like a local. Preparing for hurricane season and everything;)
But I miss a lot too...:( So try not to forget about me down here...:)
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Dumps Like A Truck?
So I made it accross the country - with all my stuff, parents, cat, and all. My apartment is starting to look a little more like home...way different than Holland - but nonetheless...it's gotta look like my home somehow.
My mom is still here, which has actually been a lot less stressful than I had imagined. I have had a pretty good time here so far, but I think it may all hit me like a ton of bricks when I'm finally alone. I'm now starting to realize how incredibly hard it is to live away from the people who mean the most to you...it's going to be absolutely hellish.
I've tried to keep busy to take my mind off feeling sad about leaving, though it's not working all that well, I have managed to:
a) witness my dad get a ticket for 35 over in a u-haul
b) move-in and set up my apartment
c) look for a job
d) get my car crashed in a sweet hit-and-run parking garage incident
e) meet some people who won't come close to being adequate replacements for friends
f) get tan
g) get a bike, and ride it a lot
h) learn to hate smoking
The AC is cranked, and it's a cool 80 degrees here right now - I feel like I've taken living in Michigan for granted all this time...but it's amazing here. But then again, I love palm trees, and I love summer. My cat seems to be enjoying it here too - though she's sleeping most of the time, at least she's not chewing internet cables.
The bars are all open until 3 a.m., so that's one downfall of wanting to bartend in a big city, though a perk for prospective visitors;) I'll miss celebrating my birthday with the people I love, miss, and care about in Michigan- but don't worry...I'll hopefully have a couple drinks to toast to you...you know who you are:)
By the way, if anyone's interested in acquiring a cat...don't bother buying one cause they wander the streets like creepy people here...for free...
My mom is still here, which has actually been a lot less stressful than I had imagined. I have had a pretty good time here so far, but I think it may all hit me like a ton of bricks when I'm finally alone. I'm now starting to realize how incredibly hard it is to live away from the people who mean the most to you...it's going to be absolutely hellish.
I've tried to keep busy to take my mind off feeling sad about leaving, though it's not working all that well, I have managed to:
a) witness my dad get a ticket for 35 over in a u-haul
b) move-in and set up my apartment
c) look for a job
d) get my car crashed in a sweet hit-and-run parking garage incident
e) meet some people who won't come close to being adequate replacements for friends
f) get tan
g) get a bike, and ride it a lot
h) learn to hate smoking
The AC is cranked, and it's a cool 80 degrees here right now - I feel like I've taken living in Michigan for granted all this time...but it's amazing here. But then again, I love palm trees, and I love summer. My cat seems to be enjoying it here too - though she's sleeping most of the time, at least she's not chewing internet cables.
The bars are all open until 3 a.m., so that's one downfall of wanting to bartend in a big city, though a perk for prospective visitors;) I'll miss celebrating my birthday with the people I love, miss, and care about in Michigan- but don't worry...I'll hopefully have a couple drinks to toast to you...you know who you are:)
By the way, if anyone's interested in acquiring a cat...don't bother buying one cause they wander the streets like creepy people here...for free...
Saturday, May 07, 2005
All the Times I have Sat and Stared...
Happy...Graduation, Mother's Day, Move Out Day, and Birthday...all in one week. What happens next? It's been an amazing week...I've got to see a lot of people for probably the last time, but it's been awesome.
I'm on my second 4-cup pot of coffee within an hour...and that means I may be going crazy in about another hour, but so be it - my headache is slowly going away...I've been trying to cut back, but that's gone down the drain along with a lot of other things. Oh well. May as well live it up the last couple days right?
My apartment now only consists of things that are coming with me, everything else is either sold/given away, or in the dumpster somewhere...so if you're thinking about tagging along, you may want to get packed in an empty box or suitcase and get ready for the ride...
This will for sure be my last post before I leave, because the next thing to get packed is this computer...and unforunately I have a comencement ceremony to attend tomorrow afternoon. That leaves Monday, my last day in this lovely Dutch town of Holland...that may sound bitter and pesimistic, but let me assure you, I'm only taking happy memories with me for trip down...along with my cat, and parents...it may be a bumpy ride, but we'll make it.
"Welcome to resistance,
The tension is here...
Between who you are and who you could be,
Between how it is and how it should be...
I dare you to move,
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor...
Like today never happened
Today never happened...before..."
I'm on my second 4-cup pot of coffee within an hour...and that means I may be going crazy in about another hour, but so be it - my headache is slowly going away...I've been trying to cut back, but that's gone down the drain along with a lot of other things. Oh well. May as well live it up the last couple days right?
My apartment now only consists of things that are coming with me, everything else is either sold/given away, or in the dumpster somewhere...so if you're thinking about tagging along, you may want to get packed in an empty box or suitcase and get ready for the ride...
This will for sure be my last post before I leave, because the next thing to get packed is this computer...and unforunately I have a comencement ceremony to attend tomorrow afternoon. That leaves Monday, my last day in this lovely Dutch town of Holland...that may sound bitter and pesimistic, but let me assure you, I'm only taking happy memories with me for trip down...along with my cat, and parents...it may be a bumpy ride, but we'll make it.
"Welcome to resistance,
The tension is here...
Between who you are and who you could be,
Between how it is and how it should be...
I dare you to move,
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor...
Like today never happened
Today never happened...before..."
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Goodbye with a Lime Twist
Seeing as how my interenet is already cancelled, and I'm only posting through the miracle of an unsecured wireless network that only works 20% of the time, this may be my last post from this good ol' state of Michigan.
It's been a blast this week so far, i've had some good conversations, and some hard ones...but regardless, after I think about it, I think it might actually all work out. Guess it won't be long until I find out for real though.
It just seems like pieces of my life are coming to and end one by one...but unfortunately I don't want that to happen to the whole thing. I know I'm starting over but I'm not planning on forgetting what I started here either...stay in touch:)
I think my only chances of making that happen simply include the act of advertising the city. "Miami: bikini's, sun, beaches, and Stephanie's apartment." Sounds like almost as good of a magazine ad as "my caught you looking jeans" doesn't it...
Well I guess that's it. That's my story right now, goodbye's and graduation. Kinda depressing, but I'm about 75% there to being excited to get down there. That may spiral back to 0% when I realize it was a one-way trip, but who knows.
Ok well this unsecured wireless internet is failing me, as it this post and the hopes of finding that 300 dollars...
Can I have a damn lemon for this drink already?
It's been a blast this week so far, i've had some good conversations, and some hard ones...but regardless, after I think about it, I think it might actually all work out. Guess it won't be long until I find out for real though.
It just seems like pieces of my life are coming to and end one by one...but unfortunately I don't want that to happen to the whole thing. I know I'm starting over but I'm not planning on forgetting what I started here either...stay in touch:)
I think my only chances of making that happen simply include the act of advertising the city. "Miami: bikini's, sun, beaches, and Stephanie's apartment." Sounds like almost as good of a magazine ad as "my caught you looking jeans" doesn't it...
Well I guess that's it. That's my story right now, goodbye's and graduation. Kinda depressing, but I'm about 75% there to being excited to get down there. That may spiral back to 0% when I realize it was a one-way trip, but who knows.
Ok well this unsecured wireless internet is failing me, as it this post and the hopes of finding that 300 dollars...
Can I have a damn lemon for this drink already?
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